Wanyi; - i don't live by myself (:

in life there's only once

2010-08-26T03:54:00.000+08:00

HEY BABE, ME JUST WANNA TELL YOU THAT. I NEVER EVER FORGET ABOUT YOU AND LEAVE YOU OUT BECAUSE OF MW. TO ME, FRIENDSHIP IS FOREVER IMPORTANT, AND NOTHING CAN REPLACE IT. THANKS FOR TAKING CARE OF ME THROUGHOUT THE TAIWAN TRIP, REAL SORRY FOR ALL THE STRESS AND TROUBLES I CAUSED YOU. I KNOW YOU'RE SAD ABOUT YOUR R/S PROBLEMS, I WANNA HELP, BUT I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW. DO CHEER UP, AND I HOPE EVERYTHING GOES OUT WELL FOR YOU. AND ALWAYS REMEMBER, WHENEVER YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO, GO OUT WITH, JOKE WITH, PLAY WITH, SHOP WITH, I'M ALWAYS JUST A TEXT/CALL AWAY. :)

THE STAYOVER THAT NIGHT WAS AWESOME WITH JOJO&SRENE. I REALLY HOPE TO SEE YOU GIRLS SOON AGAIN! CHEEEEEER UP BABES, I LOVE YOU GIRLS! :)

Exams are killing me, stressing me out. I started too late, so I can only blame yours sincerely. Hahah. I hope at least I'd pass, I never want to repeat module, I'd die. :(

Sorry Mr Tang, recently I have bad attitude, lousy temper! I hate the quarrels we had, I hate the way we talk coldly. I love the way you tell me you're not sick and tired of all these, instead you'll still let me and give in to me. SORRRRRRRRRRRY SEXY BOY! :( STUDY HARD !!!

if you come back

2010-08-12T02:37:00.000+08:00

I miss my long curls.

I wonder if it's too much to ask for. Maybe steady is right about having personal space. To me, this is just widening the whole distance. 7 hours since just now. Waiting, till now I still am. I guess it just never comes. Tomorrow then. I'll remember this whole sentence, "I wanna cherish each and every moment I have with you before you go Taiwan". Let's hope you're having fun now, and relaxing yourself since you're working so hard everyday. Loving you isn't being possessive towards you, I get that. So yeah, I'll stop, I won't be waiting anymore. I'm not sure if what I'm doing is right or not. I don't know if it's unreasonable. I don't know if I'm asking for too much. I don't know if my expectations are overwhelming. No doubt you're sweet and caring, but sometimes .. you just make me feel .. I don't know how to explain, but yeah, I hope it wouldn't fade away. I won't want anything to happen. If it does, I don't know what else can I do. Half of me is utterly disappointed, half of me is worried about you now. I wonder if you're okay. Hopefully you are.

And, Taiwan here I come! Gonna forget about everything, and have hell loads of fun.

Till here, so long. G'night.

life is good when you think it is

2010-08-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

Life's great, 'cause guess what? It's a three week YOG break (actually study break), damn not in the mood to study. I need more money, more money and MUCH MORE MONEY. Want to work, yet can't afford the time, how sad. :(

I'm gonna go Taiwan with Serene Tan Shu Ling this coming Friday, how awesome can my parents get? They just said yes, it's like a so last minute decision to go Taiwan for a break. Just me and serene, still me and her. I got to start packing, go change the currency and check for some stuffs I need to buy. Oh yes, I'm a happy girl. I think sexyboy and lester is gonna send us off, which means OH SEE MY PARENTS AGAIN. Someone's gonna pee in his pants. (evil laughter)

Have been spending money like drinking water these few days, and I'm totally regretful for my actions. So now I got to find ways to earn the money back, Mr Nicey actually wanna help me with it but I feel so bad. And so today I went to the gym with mw, serene and lester. OMG, IT WAS DISASTROUS, I REGRET STEPPING INSIDE. BECAUSE SOME FAT LAZY PIG DON'T WANNA DO HIS WEIGHTS AND EVERYTHING HE COME AND MAKE ME DO. HE MAKE ME DO FLUTTERKICKS SOME SIT UP THING AND BRIDGE, EACH THREE SETS SOMEMORE SO LONG COUNTS. WTH IS THIS WTH YOU TELL ME. SO I CANNOT GET FAT YOU CAN GET FAT LA? :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SO FUNNY. THEN WHEN I CANNOT DO, HIS FACE TURN FROM :> TO :<. WHEN I DO TILL WANNA DIE HIS FACE TOTALLY IS :D (WIDE GRINS) MY PAIN IS HIS JOY. SO BAD SO BAD SO VERY BAD. Since now he's not online, I can say all these here WAHAHAHAHAHA.

I can't wait to go taiwan with my lesbo woman, I can't wait to go play and explore the place with her although she went many times. I can't wait to go shop till I drop and stop spending money when I'm back. I can't wait to go hot spring. I can't wait to go the theme park. I JUST CAN'T WAIT. But, it's 6 whole days. So someone's gonna miss me ~ HEHEHE.

Enough of all my craps here, I wanna go remove my make up, do some skincare, before I go to sleep. So tired.

But did I mention I went to the flyer with sexyboy on wednesday? It's only $10 for students, so cheap! The ride wasn't 30 minutes, it was only 15 minutes or was it because I'm too carried away. HAHA, overall it's a great experience. And we took alot of nice photos, of the sunset. Heh, smart us purposely choose the timing. K la, I like doing things that are different from my normal usual daily life. One thing I'll never get bored of ; SHOPPING. :)

Okay, I love shopping, shopping is my everything. K BYE.

wish upon a star

2010-07-27T23:07:00.001+08:00

TWO PRESENTATIONS DOWN, SO NOW LEFT WITH POM ON THURSDAY. AND YEAH, ALL PROJECTS CLEARED. I'M UBER HAPPY TODAY BECAUSE MY STATS GROUP GOT A FOR OUR STATS PROJECT, AWESOME OR?

Eff comm presentation today, I think it's an achievement that I'm not reading as much, hopefully? I don't know. Haven't get to see my fattybom in formal attire yet, I don't care I must see! I looked rather casual today so I think my attire marks are deducted. Like so awww. Next thing is, I think our group's sharepoint project gonecase already, hopefully personal webpage and quiz can pull my grade up. And did I mention I love my eff comm group? Awesome peeps (:

Shopping therapy today, little therapy ;) but still happy, at least can get to relax with lovelies today. I love buying things, sometimes even things I don't need. Ought to start thinking twice before I spend money already. Alright, I wanna go do my POM proj or maybe sleep. I'm so tired after the swim @ steady's place, I'm still at her place now HAHA. Awesome max, last minute decision to go swim, but we still got to swim. AND GUESS WHAT, WE'RE GONNA SEE LEEMINHO LEEMINHO LEEMINHO AGAIN ON SATURDAY. HOHOHO, GREATTTTTT. HAPPY CELEBRATION FOR END OF MY PROJECTS. RML.

Recently, fattybom and me abit keep quarrel, I hope things will be fine always. So nice, always wait for me to end school, finish up my projects which is like 6 plus 7 already :/ Thanks for listening to me repeat my speech over and over again into your ears that you can't sleep, and even in smses it's all about PLASTIC SURGERY HAHAHA. JIAYOU DO PROJECT, KTHXBYE :)

a thousand reasons

2010-07-26T00:24:00.000+08:00

Seriously stressed up. I should just go sleep, any longer I'm gonna explode. My moods sucks so bad now.

I wanna get over and done with this.

one step back

2010-07-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE, HOW'S LIFE?

Recently, my life is like .............. don't tell you. My whole week was full of emotions, happiness, sadness, jealousy, anger, envious, whatever shit you can name. Life is meant to be happy = bullshit. Life is full of up and downs, and there's more downs as compared to up. HTW, I don't even know what I'm talking about.

Oh no :( ICA 2 next week, kill me? AFA and cross cultural ica tomorrow. Recently, I'm so tight on cash. I wonder where the hell I spend all my money. I thought I should have more cash after the flea, but no it's the opposite. Went to The Arena to collect darling's shirt yesterday, planned to take and go. Who knows something went wrong, we ended up walking inside the flea. Saw alot of nice things, but yeah cash strapped. So didn't finish walking and went out. Another thing is, we walked from one end of pasir ris park to the other end. Cool or awesome? Tired max. Someone actually fell asleep on the bus trip and ...... hohohoho.

I'm gonna rush out my report now, and then try to find my stupid accounting textbook so I can study. Before I fail my ICA tomorrow.

When I decided to give it my all, I didn't know whether it's gonna be a right choice. I never thought if I'd come back with a broken heart. I thought everything's gonna stay as it is. I expected so much, I wanted more. Never did I realized, everything's gonna change alot. I wanted to make things right, but never had the chance. I'm not who I was anymore, good or bad, I don't know. All I know, as long as our hearts doesn't change, everything's gonna be alright. Loving you, much more than anything else.

stress free not

2010-07-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

DAMN THIS LIFE.

Life isn't good for me, I feel so stressed up. I feel myself breaking down. I know I just got to brace up and continue with this stupid life, full of projects and stress whatever shit. Nothing's going well. But yeah, I'm strong I can take it. Nothing's gonna bring me down.

I really have to thank people who are always there to stand by me, you know who you are. It feels good to have people to turn to when you meet with problems. Some names I don't really have to mention, you know who you are, thanks for always being there.

I just need a place where I'm alone, I can sort out my thinkings carefully. What am I gonna do with my life. I don't know. I love this special person deeply, and hope things won't change.

Love, it's just like what I used to say, it's just still so indefinite. You never know what's gonna happen the next second. So yeah, why not cherish the present? ;)

So long since I blogged, sorry for flooding my post with emotional stuffs. I really need to get it off me so bad.

fun peace love

2010-06-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOO, SCHOOL STARTED, AND IT'S SUPER FUN WITH MY LOVELY FRIENDS AND CLASSMATES.

Yesterday was shopping day with my steady. This woman made me wait below her house for 30 mins, AND SHE WAS SLEEPING. SEE HOW NICE IS SHE. One cute guy came down to look for me in case I'm alone, so nice. Hahahahah! So we went bugis, and ah bui went home. I can't believe steady nearly got fined, it was so scary and funny at the same time.

Today I watched Toy Story 3 with darling, it was a nice movie. Too bad we didn't catch the 3D one due to timing, so I didn't get to see all the toys flying around (so sad). Toy story 3 is so cool, although I didn't watch the previous ones. I hope my toys will be so cute too, I have many on my bed! I wonder if they talk at night when I'm asleep. HAHAHAHA, joking! :>

So many movies I wanna catch, so many nice movies are gonna be out in july! Coooool. I just don't know how to start on my sharepoint. :( Shall go bathe and figure it out. I smell like someone, HAHA! ;)

just so different

2010-06-27T15:32:00.001+08:00

Pretty messed up now, I wonder how life can be so ironic, people too. Today and yesterday seemed so different. Maybe it isn't like what I think, or it's just like what they say. My life is just so messed up now. Being insecure, it's just not me. So yeah, gonna be back to who I was, now. Fairytales are just stories for kids, I'm not a kid anymore, so I don't believe in it. I only believe in myself and what I see.

I tried frog porridge for the first time with my family yesterday, true to what I expected, I didn't really like it. I find it kind of scary and gross, mummy shared the same feeling as me too. Maybe it's the last time I'm gonna eat it, brother just like to scare me with all the frog head and stuffs. Really gross to the max. So eeeeeew.

School's starting tomorrow, it seems like I'm not prepared at all. Supposed to go for make up lesson this morning, I just kept sleeping though I slept so early yesterday, like at 11 plus I'm already half asleep. And sometimes I wonder is there anything wrong with me. Kept having headaches since yesterday, really feel so not well. This feeling just suck so much. I'm going to sleep again, since I have nothing to do and I don't feel like doing my sharepoint personal web page. Life sucks, so fml.

Hope you'll prove me wrong.

life like a fairytale

2010-06-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody!

My life suck so much today, because I'm stuck at home all day. I wanted to go out, but I'm lazy. Yesterday mummy came over to cwp to find me and serene, darling was there too. HAHAHA, and it's really funny how scared he was to see mummy. "This one even harder than O level sia" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, omgeez, funny to the max! I can't believe ah bui actually laughed at me when I saw his mum, his reaction was much funnier than mine please. In the end, mum was still quite friendly just like me (Y)

Today someone go camp don't want me already, sigh (N) Camp till sunday, more (N) LOL! Guess he's having lots of fun there and it's a good thing haha! School's starting on monday, so eeeew. I wish I didn't have to study :(

People say google chrome is really fast, I went and downloaded it because I have to use the spare laptop which is acer and it sucks so much. Okay, but I think google chrome isn't that fast after all. It's somehow the same as internet explorer. Not of much help :(

2 random things to say.
First, I really love my nails, I think I don't mind paying $30 for it, because it's really niceeeeee, hello kitty (Y) HAHAHA. Second, I think I miss mw tang alot LOL. And he's not replying my texts, awww. HAHAHAHA, k la, I shall go watch tv, bathe and relax. Too bad I didn't bring my laptop back, else I'll be starting on my sharepoint assignment already.

Kthxbye!

sweet escape

2010-06-22T23:07:00.001+08:00

Yesterday someone wanted to make me disappointed, but too bad, I knew you'd plan something. I didn't expect it to be so nicely planned though, thanks darling for the sweet surprise at T.G.I.Fridays. I was shocked to the max, sorry for being abit slow though. Heehee. And thanks for the 2nd surprise at the "roof" HAHAHA! Our first monthsary was awesome, thanks to my bff s'rene tan who helped you ;) And hope you like the present I got for you, don't anyhow use to whistle at girls, or I'm gonna kick your ass!

It was interesting how steady and me got so scared just because of some sounds yesterday. It goes like, I ask her if she's scared to live alone and stuffs like that. Then don't know why she locked the toilet door, then we continue talking. Until both of us kept quiet, then got some dripping sounds which sounded like footsteps, she stared at me with her trademark 'something is wrong' look, hahahahahah. I got scared, but different thing was I was scared of ghost, serene was scared of robbers. HAHAHA! Funny max. Then, we called darling and lester. So funny, lester told us things like 'take objects that can cause hurt to others'. I was laughing out loud. I find both of us spastic, but cute. We always do stupid things together. And steady, I'll never forget how you ask me 'do you dare to kill someone' yesterday! Awesome much.

Today met up with yitian and ellie, it was great! Cause haven't seen them for long, then gossiped and talked as usual. It's always funny when we talk about every thing. I love you girls, and shall meet up again when yingying comes back! Cool :D

Okiedokie! Back to projects. I got to start my sharepoint assignment soon, sucks ttm! Holidays are like super short, I need a longer one please! Okay, never mind, I shall go watch tv now. Bye everybody!

i love daddy

2010-06-21T01:25:00.000+08:00

HELLO :>

I went to celebrate daddy's day just now, heehee. I hope he enjoyed it. Today's gonna be a short post, although I've lots to say, but I got to go sleep. Daddy's day is also 20th, which means HAPPY ONE MONTHSARY DARLING! ;) Outing tomorrow, can't wait to see my friends and you. Heeheee. Okay! Good night all, shall do a proper update tomorrow. I love everyone (L)

being happy is a choice

2010-06-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

Hey girls, when are we gonna meet up? :)

MUMMY IS BACK, WOOHOO! I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL BECAUSE SHE GOT ME ALOT ALOT OF PRESENTS (Y) THANKS MUMMY, ESPECIALLY FOR THE BURBERRY WALLET, ME LOVE YOU! ;D

Have been hanging out with steady these few days. And because I'm sick, I can't really have much fun. Double or nothing date on thursday was awesome, heehee. We went for steamboat at The Mushroom Pot, steady says it is really nice. I find it quite okay. After that, we went to steady's house. Too bad someone can't join us, so he went home alone :<

Went to town to do some important stuffs on friday, and to my surprise, guess who I met ?! No, I'm not gonna tell you hahahahah! It's just so damn scary to the max. But, it's over. Heeheee. Today is saturday, and I'm not out with steady and co. :( Kind of sad, but there's many more saturdays, so yeah! HAHAHA! ;)

Met up with liangbing for lunch the other day, had a great and nice talk with her. Hahah! Awesome (:

I'm so bored now, I can't talk because my throat hurts :< And since I can't talk, it's really killing me. I need to talk so badly HAHAHAHA! Funny! Okay, I got to go.

Bye sweeeeeeeets!

i wanna get well!

2010-06-16T00:03:00.001+08:00

GERMS GERMS GERMS! :(

My whole room is filled with my germs! Germs plus germs equals more germs! I feel like dying man. Sucks to be sick, especially when my mommy is not around :( Although daddy is also very concerned about me, but getting sick makes me miss mummy more more more. Didn't tell mommy I was sick while sms-ing her because I didn't want to spoil her trip! Hahaha, what a nice daughter. Heeheeee.

Sore throat, fever, cough, then flu. What's next? I think I got them all. LOL. Should I go watch some horror movie to scare my germs away? HAHA! Yes I should, since I'll be staying home tomorrow again. I officially wasted TWO days of my holidays, not cool at all.

I shall go scare my germs all away now :(

BYEBYE PEOPLE, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF WELL, BECAUSE GETTING SICK IS SO NOT COOL, ESPECIALLY MR T. YOU BETTER NOT FALL SICK! ;)

someone i can't find words to say goodbye

2010-06-14T01:28:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU SERENE TAN, FEEL LIKE DYING WITHOUT YOU HAHAHAHAHAHA LAUGH OUT LOUD. I THINK YOU'RE HAVING FUN, SO SEE YOU IN FEW DAYS TIME!

Today I woke up at nearly 5pm, awesome or cool? Hahahahah. Holidays are so not holidays, projects projects projects! I thought I can stay home and get fat this holidays, but too bad, there's just so many things for me to do. Most importantly, I'm gonna meet up with many people I miss like ytn, ellie and more more more! :>

I think I'm falling sick, can feel my that my throat hurts alot :< It's okay, I'm sure I'll get better tomorrow because I drank a lot of water today. I miss mummy so much, life without her sucks so much. Gonna go get many many new clothes when steady comes back from cruise too, woohoo ♥

Project in school @ 12 noon tomorrow, I wonder if I can wake up! Especially I have to bring my laptop along, I hope I won't drop it on the way there, like how I dropped it for 2 times. Poor laptop, I'm sorry I can't take good care of you.

Anyway, my itouch rock to the max now, everyone wanna snatch it away from me. NO WAY, IT'S MINEEEEEEEE. Finally my pink little gadget made me found it's purpose I can't live without, that is awesome applications and nice themes, HAHAHA! Yay. Finally something to accompany when I'm bored and can utilise my huge storage capacity. ;) I'm so not gonna let it leave me!

Alright, time for me to sleeeeeeeeep. I wonder how I can crap so much when I intended to only post about how much I miss my steady. I have to quickly pack the clothings for the flea coming up in july too! :D

Okayyy, goodnight sexy humans.

I mean it when I decide to give you all the freedom. You said you don't need it, in time to come, you will. Many things will change in the long run, it's whether we can overcome it or not. Meanwhile, just cherish each and every moment, because we won't know what's gonna happen tomorrow. ♥

cross my mind

2010-06-13T03:49:00.001+08:00

HEYHEY HI :>

Please ask me how I'm feeling now, I'll tell you, holidays are great and wonderful. I spent my night at steady's house yesterday, felt kind of bad. Because while watching tv, I fell asleep, and slept all the way till 10. Woke up, went to her room used comp for awhile, and throughout, I was half asleep. Even when I was talking to darling on the phone. It's like funny cause I can't remember what we were talking about.

This morning was even worse, I woke up, bathed and had a nice breakfast thanks to aunty but I fell asleep again right after that while waiting for her to prepare. Until after we went out of her house, then I became awake. I think I'm very deprived of sleep. And that's what happens.

Went to home club for fleaflyfunflo(?) hahahaha, should be. In a nutshell, it's a flea market again. This time I didn't come home with many things, only one top which is like sad. We sat around and slack until around 5 plus, before heading to chinatown. Tried KOI's ice cream milk tea for the first time, I must say it's really nice and cool! Headed to somerset after that, walk walk @ F21, money money money $.$ HAHA! Hope mommy comes back quickly so we can go shop together. After awhile, fatty came. So all of us went to far east to have dinner, took some pictures, and off we go! :) Hahahah! Then me and steady came back to msia, mw and lester sent us all the way inside the customs. Heehee, so nice.

I hope steady and her darling will have fun for their cruise trip! :)

Someone is sleeping like a pig already, HAHA! Time for me to sleep as well, it's so damn late already. Though I've nothing on tomorrow, but ya, I better sleep early. Before someone decide to abandon me :< HAHAHAHA!

Byebye!

I (L) my source of happiness, being with you.

where rainbows end

2010-06-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

Time for haircut ?!?! I say yes. HAHA!

MUMMY IS GOING EUROPE TOMORROW NIGHT, OH NO :( I CAN'T GO WITH HER, SO SAD SO SAD SO DAMN SAD. It's not that bad, because she promise there'll be presents for me heeheeee. Awesome to the max!

Speech presentation tomorrow, that sucks. I'm trying to rehearse it but I just can't put my words into sentences. Sigh! I WANNA MEMORISE NOW.

Today is our movie day, watched killers, I think I fell asleep halfway, woke up awhile after, so at least I still know most of the story. Hahaha, went home to get my stuffs, and came back to msia because mom's leaving tomorrow. I hope she has a safe trip! (:

Formal wear again tomorrow, guess I'm gonna wear the same thing as the other time, didn't have any time to buy. Okay! Time to continue memorising the damn effing speech, tomorrow, I'm so over you. Hahahaha! So sad, it's a week without mummy :( I think I can't stand it. EEE, I was supposed to go with her !!!

Okay byebye sexy people.

the innocence that used to be

2010-06-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hello! ;)

Had my dinner really early today, thanks to vacuum cleaner. Walked home with vacuum cleaner from marsiling because I'm a blur girl, forgot to bring my ez link again. I wonder how many times I forgotten already since I got the card. HAHA!

Despite having awesome calls in the morning to wake me up, I took 2 hours to wake up. Missed my class in the end, that sucks. Thankfully my mw is so smart, know I sure sleep back, called me many times to make sure I'm awake. (press like button) Heeheee !

Finally cleared my phonebill today, good thing. Another thing is, I wish I have unlimited cash :( So I can buy anything I want, and anything I like, especially food! HAHAHAHA! I'm a happy girl because I bought fruity pebbles and cornflakes for breakfast tomorrow. HEEHEEEEE, which means I have to wake up ultra early to have time for breakfast.

Since I'm home early today, I shall start writing out my speech on the notecards. Yeah, after blogging. However, I keep having the 'I wanna sleep, my eyes are really closing' kind of feeling. Dozing off soon. Omg :(

This can't happennnnnn, okay! I must hurry complete, and off to sleep :D Tomorrow is where-nurse-day HAHAHAHAH, no it's movie day. (Y) Wonder what we're gonna watch, no nightmare on elm street cause it's M18, WHY WHY WHY :(

I think I'm mad, watching tv alone, laughing alone. Or am I laughing at myself? Time to buck up, if not it's gonna be too late to catch up.

Byebye lovelove. <3

the best part of me

2010-06-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

Does the pen look cute and familiar? HAHAHA!

I can't believe it, I'm gonna present my speech on THURSDAY. It's time I sit down and really do my speech outline although it sucks so much. My results for ICA 1 ain't good at all, yeah, if this goes on, I'm gonna get my phd soon, which is poly halfway dropout. Study wanyi study, if not someone's gonna smack your head.

I wonder is it whether when people realize they start to lose things, then they'd cherish? Hahah. Time to reflect! Hahahahahaha. Okay, I had dinner with cousin and bro just now at benten cafe @ jp, the food was quite nice, the dessert was colourful and nice! Thanks kaikai for the treat :)

EEEEEEEW, NO MORE SLEEPING EARLY TONIGHT AS PLANNED :< DO HOMEWORK, SO SAD. I SO LOOK FORWARD TO FRIDAY CAUSE IT'S MEANS BREAK IS STARTING! AWESOME AWESOME? AWESOME.

Happy studying, wanyi lim & mingwei tang ! ;) BYEBYE.

differences join us together

2010-06-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

BM1010 LOVE ;)

I just feel so damn weird, is it me or is it you? I'm stressed by the stupid effing speech. Can't even figure out how to phrase my whole speech. Facebook, twitter, I use it yet I don't know how to talk about it. This sucks a lot.

My mood now is enough for me to spam here with all the vulgarities, but save it, I can't do that. I really wanna %&(@)&()&)(@. DANG. My mind is flooded, flooded, flooded by everything. FML LA, PLS. I need my steady tan with me right now. Only she'd understand how I feel.

Boy, I'm sorry for being so not understanding, sorry for making you feel insecure, sorry for making you give in to me all the time. I just suck at expressing myself. Flash you a million dollar smile okay? ;) Cheer up!

Sometimes when you really sit down, without any distractions and think, things get so clear. I wish there's something I can do to change things. There's just nothing I can do anymore. I just hope things will start to turn out well. Hopefully.

HAHAHAHA, I FEEL SO GOOD NOW. Like I didn't typed all those things in front HAHAHA! LOLOLOL. That's why I say that fatty jeremiah never fails to make me smile, but when he makes me angry, I get really angry :< HEHEEE. (L)

School tomorrow, woohooo. STRESSSSSSSS COMES AGAIN! :(

I need to complete my speech soon, by tomorrow night. So I've enough time to practise and rehearse.

Sometimes things are just so yesterday..

sometimes its just that life's meant to be

2010-06-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBADEH. ;)

I think I haven't posted for quite some time, I believe some people must have missed my post so damn much. My week was filled with fun, and the most dreaded ICA. *insert x1000 sad faces*

Recently I'm so updated with movies, hahahahahah! I've watched shrek forever after, prince of persia and the abandoned, what's next? ;) I hope more horror movies will be shown, that'll be so awesome, and I get to see someone pee in his pants LOL. Just joking!

Went to support carmen's performance @ VCH with the other 3 lovelies yesterday, hahahah it was quite okay. My first time watching such concerts. Cool? (:

Today, met vacuum cleaner for brunch, and then came back to malaysia for my lovely family outing. Yay! And good news, all my siblings are using blackberry, woohoo, BBM FTW. ;)

Dear Vacuum Cleaner, I think you're so cute that you're so vacuum cleaner HAHAHA. Thanks for being so nice and everything, sorry I'm unreasonable at times. No worries, you're so understanding and nice right! I think maple syrup last week still on effect, hehe. Study hard for your ICAs next week, have fun ! (L)(L)(L) See you on .. M-O-N-D-A-Y! ;)

I can be happy.

lousy

2010-05-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

F PISSED, WITH MYSELF.
I just feel so lousy, everything was perfect until ..
I smile on the outside, but inside I'm dying.
Hate breaking down myself, hate not showing how I feel.
That's just so, me.

Today, I suck very much.
Hahahahaha, bye.

each and every day

2010-05-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

AFA ICA TOMORROW, HOW BAD CAN THINGS GET. ;( I THINK I'M SO SUPER NOT PREPARED, BUT YEAH IT'S OKAY, CAUSE I'M STUDYING RIGHT NOW. CALL ME GOOD GIRL. HAHAHA!

Went town to meet itchy ass and carmen just now, companied carmen for awhile to get her presents and she went off. So me and itchy ass walk walk around while waiting for serene and lester. Had dinner at graffiti cafe @fep, then off to steady's house to study! ;D

Anyway, I feel that itchy ass is so understanding, thanks for always trying to stand in my shoes and think for me. I feel bad about always getting angry and jealous over small little things and making you give in to me. This really shows how good you are to me, you rock (Y) Each and everyday with you just makes me happier. Although I feel bad, but I still think it's perfectly fine, agree agree? I just love being with you. AND TODAY SOMEONE MOUTH ITCHY HAHAHAHAHAHA. LOLOLOL ! Morning calls from itchy ass tomorrow, how awesome can it get! :D

Time to go study a little more, and get to sleep before I end up like a zombie tomorrow.

STEADY (AH LING JIE) , I REALLY CAN'T LIVE W/O YOU, YOU KNOW YOU KNOW YOU KNOW ?! ;)

all i really want is to hold you tight

2010-05-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I run,
Sometimes I hide,
Sometimes I cry,
Sometimes I smile,
Sometimes I get angry,
Sometimes I get jealous,
Sometimes I'm scared of you.
I have all sorts of such feelings always, because I care.

I'm just being me.
And I'm only me, when I'm with you.

love is when we're together

2010-05-29T02:00:00.002+08:00

HI LONG WEEKEND (Y)

2 consecutive long weekends rock to the max, except my friday this week rock more more more. Know why? Because I watched 'shrek forever after' today with some guy who has an itchy butt. My first time watching a 3D movie, I think I mountain tortoise, but never mind cause I get to watch it with you (L) I feel like watching movie again again again! However, we have ICA next week, 3 in a row. Worse for you, 4 :D HAHAH ! Okay, gonna mug hard tomorrow, oops is today! Which is later when I wake up. Make up lessons at 3, woohoo can't wait for it! I seriously love my steady (miss tan) a lot a lot a lot!

Itchy butt is playing dota now (N) DOTA SUX TTM, OKAY! ;P HAHAHAHAHAHA, shall go sleep soon. I love my life, I love you. ;)

you're the star who made my wish come true

2010-05-28T02:18:00.000+08:00

HI MY LOVES :>

It's gonna be a long weekend, I like this (Y) But I have to study throughout the weekend for ICA next week. I hope I can concentrate on my studies! Heh, today was a scary day because ..... HAHAHAH, forget it, wy lim is not angry anymore. Thanks lovelies for being there. I love all of you!

Wonder if I'll wake up tomorrow, hahahahah haven't got enough sleep for so long.

I sincerely hope that whatever you joked about today will never come true. I hope it's gonna remain as a joke always, and never happen. Only you can make me smile like I never smiled before, happy pill! ;)

Cutest guy on earth is asleep HAHAHA, so I should go sleep too. BYE ALL (L)

shooting stars

2010-05-27T01:55:00.000+08:00

Is it love, when you realize that someone else's happiness matters more than your own happiness? Caring for the person more than how you care about yourself.

I'm a girl who doesn't like to quarrel over small things, don't like to be unhappy. I get angry, but I smile and laugh right after that. I realize I'm a weird girl, I have my own thinking and mindset and I like to do things my way. It's only up to people to accept it.

Sometimes I feel that I'm selfish, but at times I feel that I think too much for others. Whatever it is, I just hope that people around me can always be happy, especially you.

Perfect in my eyes, always.
Your happiness matters more than anything else.

hello miracle

2010-05-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

HELLO! Wanyi Lim thinks econs test was a disaster. My life now is close to perfect, I don't wish for anything to change, especially you. ;)

Study study study! Poly is so about studying, who said it was slack. Asshole! Where got slack! LOL, but never mind, study hard wy lim! I think I need to go many places after exams. And, I need to quit home club and get a job really soon since someone's gonna get busy! HAHAHAHAHA.

Okayyyy, I shall let this be a short post. Long week ahead, but I love it. ;D

BYEEEEEEE!

every moment seem like a miracle

2010-05-23T21:56:00.001+08:00

HI MY LOVES, KNOW WHAT? MY WEEKEND WAS AWESOME. I LOVE MY WEEKEND TO THE MAX. THANK YOU ALL LOVELIES WHO SPENT IT WITH ME ;)

Went for flea with steady and co yesterday, bought like a few things. Super happy! After that went to slack around, and someone came HAHAHAHA. I can't believe someone actually can eat so much, (Y)! Just slack around the whole night, but it was awesome heehee! Especially when we went to steady's house to play mahjong. It sucks when I almost win everytime! Wanyi is a happy girl when you're around. ;)

Today, went to SENTOSA! Sorry girls me and serene was late :( I super love our h2h talks in the sea, so cool and so heartwarming. I came to realize I miss you girls so really much. We went to resorts world too, and omgosh, it's really nice and coooool. I so wanna go universal studios, june hopefully? *hints* HAHA! Bad thing today was, there are lots of seaweeds @ palawan beach, black oil @ siloso. ;/ We thought seaweeds were better so we stayed at palawan! Hahaha. Many funny things always happens when we're together, and I love it! It feels so good to meet up with you girls, I look forward to the next outing which is to celebrate jody and von's birthday (: ME LOVE YOU GIRLS !

And to steady, really thanks for always giving me advices, and make me feel better when I feel lousy! To see you cry yesterday, I feel really sad too. Sorry I couldn't help, but I hope my shoulder helped (: Glad to see that you two always patch things up after each quarrel, and good to see you being so happy together with him. I hope you'll always be happy just like how you always hope I do. Anything happens, there'll always be me around. I'll be there for you always, promise! ;)

I used to tell myself, I don't wanna fall in love again just because I got hurt so badly. I thought I can be strong and live by myself, I did it. I always think that love was just a game. But darling, till the day you appeared, love isn't a game anymore.

Behind got oreo , LOL ! :p

Other pictures are with the girls, didn't bring my camera along. Oh well :(

Shall get my butt back to study nao, ciao!

stop the time

2010-05-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hello people, I totally screwed my speech and my internet test. Stupid, I can't believe this is happening. Whose gonna save me pleaseeeeeeeee? :(

I need a job, I need money so so so very badly! I thought I won't have to work, until my phonebill came. BOOMZ, my father decided not to pay for me. It's okay, shall find my own ways then, since it's my fault. Going to flea market with serene and co. tomorrow ;)

Sentosa with the girls on sunday, this weekend's gonna be so packed. HAHA! I like it (Y) It also means I won't have time for my homework?! No it can't be! I swear I must study something at least, if not I'm so dead.

Till here, wanted to say some stuffs, but I think I don't feel like it anymore. So yeah, ciao! (L)

just another fairytale

2010-05-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

SAY HI TO MY CUTE LIL BOY , FROSTIE ;)

It's 1.36AM, and I've got to wake up really early tomorrow. I'm still trying very hard to complete my speech, now I'm relaxing a little. I am tired, really. Shopped for my clothes just now, yeah, I am gonna look funny x10 tomorrow. It's fine, because everyone is gonna be the same.

Sometimes things that happen are just so magical. I never knew my life can be so happy, but sometimes I never knew I can be so down. Will life get better, if I choose to forget everything? I don't know. Only thing I know is, I don't wanna make any promises I can't keep. I hope people wouldn't do the same to me too. I love promises, but I hate breaking promises. 'Promises are meant to be broken', I think I choose not to believe in this. Something I'll not believe is, 'true love'. Know what, it only causes more hurt. The sweeter the deeper the pain. Time will just wash everything away.

I was late for school today, like again. I'm late like everyday, maybe I just need some morning calls ;) Heehee! Now, I totally feel like giving up on eff comm and get to sleep. I should stop procrastinating already, so yea, till here.

How long can this last, I wonder.

you make my day

2010-05-16T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hi people.

I love smiling at random text messages, heeheeeee.

Today, I heard my neighbour playing the piano. I realize that playing musical instruments can really express how you really feel inside. For that moment, I felt like going back and learn piano again. After thinking again, I don't even have enough time to attend my make up lessons already, I doubt I'll have time to learn anything else. Maybe next time? ;)

ICA 1 for Effective Communication on tuesday, I'm so not prepared. Whose gonna save me please? :( I don't wanna fail that module pleaseeeeee. I just don't know how to structure my speech properly, am I gonna die or what? *insert x100000 sad faces*

Weekends are just so short! I feel that I've slept my whole weekend away. Maybe it's to replenish the loss of sleep during weekdays, haha! Well, I'm running out of clothes already, back to basics HAHA! ;x

My sunday is a boring day, at home for the whole day. ;( Before I forget, I have to go get my formal wear later on for my presentation, I wonder how will I look in it. A professional business woman? LOL! I bet I'll look so-not-me on Tuesday. HEEHEEEEE.

Everyone says I'm fat :(

BUT, IT'S OKAY. HAHAHAHA. BYEBYE!

we're almost there, and you gave up

2010-05-13T11:00:00.000+08:00

Know what? I MUST GET CONCESSION TODAY NO MATTER WHAT, IF NOT, I'M GONNA BE SO BROKE BY TOPPING UP $10 EVERY 2 DAYS. THIS IS JUST SO UNFAIR. :<

I'm still sitting at home now, because school starts at 2. I have to complete my POM tutorial and speech outline for Effective Communication. This is madness, because I think I don't know how to complete my speech outline, the format is so hard to follow. To think I wrote such a long page of essay and it got rejected. Time to study, and I think I'll need help from steady for accounting. ;(

Yesterday I heard a sentence from a friend, and I find that it describes a part of me!
'Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was my choice and falling for you? Was simply out of my control.'

I wanna add on to it, that is, 'to forget you, it's impossible'. ;)

Bye everyone. (L)

live and die

2010-05-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

This is overwhelming, what has come over me? Please, don't let me fall. I don't wanna step into anything, I just wanna live life like now. I thought I've forgotten, but maybe I haven't. Wanna forget, yet I couldn't. I thought it's over, but now it's haunting. I'm a weird girl, a really weird girl.

I wanna be a happy girl ;)

if i could really use a wish right now

2010-05-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

Only if I can hide forever.

Sometimes when you're tired, you just wish to fall back on someone you can trust and rely on. Sadly, I lost this person already. I don't believe I can't stand up on my own, I don't believe I'm not independent. Sometimes I can't really help but to feel lost. It's okay, because I'm gonna stand up strong.

Recently, there's so many things happening. I really feel so heartbroken when I couldn't help. I wanna help but yet there's nothing I can do. I feel so useless. Seeing them so disappointed and upset, it's the last thing I want. I really hope things can get back to normal soon. :(

Mixed feelings. Awhile I thought I should tell you, after awhile I think I shouldn't. Because after all, it's just another infatuation. Finally, now I know. I'm not emo, but I just like to be alone. Maybe not alone, but with my friends. I just can't stand and don't want anymore stress.

You, all the best. I hope you'd cheer up, sorry for being such an ass. My bad.

It's better to say things out rather than keeping it to yourself, but I feel that I should keep everything to myself. Because, nobody will ever understand.

;) ciao my dears!

fall for you

2010-05-10T13:41:00.000+08:00

Hi all, I feel so bad.

Yesterday didn't spend my mother's mothers' day with her, because she went back to my aunt's house to do some stuffs. That's why I didn't plan anything this year, in the end, I realized she didn't have to go back early, but it was too late :( WANYILIM, YOU SUCK BIG TIME.

I went to have dinner with steady and family. Thanks steady for making me feel so loved and taken care of, you know I'm really down and tried to cheer me up. Sorry, I just can't help feeling that way. Thanks for making me realize it's nice to have a bff like you. But I guess, only you understand it's different, you should know how I feel. I don't want this to happen, but ya it did. I didn't want to fall into it, but I fell. It's too late to get up, because I'm deep into it.

I just wanna say everything I feel, I just wanna tell you, I just want you to know. But yeah, I can never say, I can only keep it within me. I feel so miserable. My life sucks so much I don't have anyone to talk to. Maybe yes, but I can't just go say everything, it'll seem so weird. I hate being crazy, I hate myself like that. I fucking want myself to change, but I just can't do so. This is the me, I can't accept, but I must do so.

LIFE SUX, TTM.

day by day i fall

2010-05-08T00:24:00.000+08:00

I bet not much people seen me in specs before, lol. Do I look nerdz? ;)

I slept my whole evening away. Today is the first friday in these few years that I reach home super early. Actually had to go attend to some matters, but mom says we'll go tomorrow morning. So yeah, I should've went out and have more fun right? :(

I had lots of thing in mind to blog just now, and now my mind is blank. Maybe it's because ....... don't tell you! Haha! I shall blog when I remember about the topic just now.

Ciao!

just a lil too late

2010-05-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

I wish I can choose whether to love or not to love. I hate the rules of the game of love, whoever fall in love first, loses. This sucks, plenty much. Maybe I shouldn't be so soft anymore.

Recently, I have time management problems, it's either I reach too early, or I'm late. Why can't I ever be punctual -.- What's the problem with me man, seriously. Screw my life please.

Enough of all these depressing stuffs, Wanyi's gonna be a happy girl, hopefully.

I'll always be fine, because I have a happy mask.

lucky not

2010-05-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe I just need some luck.

Presentation tomorrow, hopefully I won't screw it up. I'm gonna find an article I'm interested in, so I can present it properly tomorrow. Wanyi Lim, Jiayou!

I'm really tired, haven't have enough sleep ever since school started. Sometimes life just sucks so much, that I'm frustrated with myself at times. I'm starting to change now, and it's really weird. Now, whenever I'm tired, I'll be so damn quiet, it's so not me. What's happening?

Flashbacks, I hate it. It just keep on flashing, haunting me in my sleep. The day I decided not to trust, I promise myself I wouldn't. And, I hope I can keep this promise. Every thing that is happening now, just keep reminding me of the past. It's like, a replay with a different cast. But guess what, I not gonna fall for it anymore.

I can be happy, why not?

Bye.

drugged

2010-05-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hihi, Wanyi is some kind of happy these few days again. I was crazy that day I guess. Hahahahah, webcam-ed with my superb bffs yesterday! 3 of us managed to get into a video conference through ooVoo, so people do go download it, and we can have video conference with it (:

Yesterday was a hot day, but Koo Fang's birthday celebration was quite successful! Hope she enjoyed it! Today's gonna end at 5, awww so late. But tomorrow's gonna be an awesome day because school ends at 12. I wonder what am I gonna do after school though, gotta go ribbons and get my top first.

Shopping a lot recently, super broke already. Having professional image for business module now, I think it's so cool! Teach us about how to take care of our skin and stuffs. Okay, anyway, got to go.

Many loves.

reflections of the past

2010-05-03T00:18:00.001+08:00

Just wanna get out of this as soon as possible. I don't have anyone I can rely on anymore, the once-so-important person is gone, forever. You know I really felt like turning back after looking at your text yesterday, I miss how things used to be between us. No matter what happened, you'd always be there to share with me, cheer me up. I know things are gonna be alright because I have you, but now, you're not there anymore. Or should I say, things have changed. Seriously, I wish you were here. But I hope you'll go for the better. I don't wanna pull you down. Thanks for that hug, it's really heartwarming, and I'll never forget. And it ends here.

School tomorrow, should be sleeping by now. I just don't wanna sleep. I'm sick of all these sad posts too, I promise there'll be happy ones soon. For now, just let me be.

I want a replay.

Happy Birthday to Koo Fang, hope she's gonna have fun on her big day!

keep the silence

2010-05-02T03:06:00.001+08:00

And this damn feeling came again.

When you try so hard to keep a happy face while you're so sad, people call you 'act emo' when you vent out your feelings in some other ways. Why the fuck would anyone wanna act emo, who would even want themselves to be remembered as emo kids. Sometimes, when people never think and talk, it really affects someone. I'm receptive towards criticisms, but I still do have feelings.

I'm struggling to keep myself going on, I just wanna get over this. I wanna go overseas and study, as soon as possible. I want to have a brand new life.

I regretted, but I fell, no way I'm getting up until it's over.

infatuation, not?

2010-04-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hello loves, life's awesome this week. I'm really tired, and I fell sick again. Ever this year started, I've been falling sick time and again. What's happening?! I hate this sick feeling man. Went for many ccas this week, not really keen on any. How?! What if I can't choose something I like :(

Shopping with the girls today, but michelle didn't join us. Starting all of us were so not high, after that we went crazy (: Neoprints, accessories, makeup, clothes. Hahahaha, love the girls. Shall upload the pictures really soon. Which is after this post. (:

I chose the topic "My First Day in NYP" for my effective communication module, hopefully I can come up with something really nice and present it well. First, I must hope my presentation of article will be good before that. Today's lesson was slack, spent 1 hour lecture fb-ing because they taught like basic HTML codes which I've learnt quite some time ago. :P

I wish my life can be more colourful, hopefully ;)

lost in your eyes

2010-04-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

I totally miss everything about wrss. (press like button 267097402793 times)

Sometimes I feel that I'm just so transparent, not as in people don't notice me. It's like everyone can see through me, how I feel, what I think. I don't know if this is a good thing or not. At times, I like myself to be unreadable, nobody can understand me. At times, I like people to understand me and stand in my shoes. However, the fact is, thing always happens not like how I want it to be.

I don't wanna procrastinate everyday but I just feel really weird. Life in poly is quite awesome with my 4 lovely friends and moreeee. I don't know how and why, sometimes, I feel a little empty. Empty in that sense of I don't know what I really want in many ways. Lost, this is the word. At least, I have my friends with me though (:

I'm missing a lot of people, ever since I'm in poly, I've lost touch with most of my friends. Even with steady, I feel that we're slowly drifting away from each other, I hope we can still be close as ever. I miss many people, too many to name.

I'm really glad to meet yuxiang in nyp, and really had lots of fun with her yesterday at the kayak orientation. Of course, mich and connie too! Really funny that, after so long of not contacting each other, we're still so bonded (?) (EH, I DON'T KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE.) The feeling is naise (Y) Anyway, feel so bad about not getting her a present yesterday, shall treat her someday to make up for it! HAHA, OMGEEZ, ME LOVE ME FRIENDS (:

AND YEAH, GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING PRELIMS! (:

nothing on you

2010-04-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, things are not just like what it seems. It takes more than courage to face the reality. Till now, I can't believe, I'm still not over it. Everything is just so yesterday.

School was awesome I suppose? Not really that awesome as I've expected though. Poly isn't that carefree afterall. Attendance attendance attendance, 85%. Lol, so what, we have to do whatever proof of absence or something online, if we're absent. Who'd even do that when they're sick. Attire sucks even more, no shorts no flip flops. Everyday must dress like what only, bad point is sometimes you run out of clothes to wear, then wear back the same old clothes. Feeling sux badly. Actually, nobody cares about the dress code, so it's gonna be t-shirt and shorts unless there's presentation. ;)

And now, next thing is, my class is just so not united as compared to other classes. Lol, but at least some of my classmates are nice. I don't know what CCA should I join, those I have in mind are hard to enter, others that are like easier, is not what I really want. I don't wanna end up with no cca :(

So I got myself a new lappy, and I'm a happy girl. I gskin-ed my lappy, and it's chio ttm. I love it although it cost me my last fortune. My hard earned pay all gone already. Nvm, shall earn again soon during holidays. And yeaaaaaa, so gonna start studying next week with clique.

I need a laptop case, anywhere with nice laptop covers? Suggestions pls! HAHA, okay guess this it what I'm gonna update about. My blog is dead, so dead. LOLOLOL, BYE PPL.

Trying to keep every memory between you and me safe in my heart.

now and then

2010-04-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

Rawr, I wish school don't start, I wish I don't have to go for any stupid orientation! I wish I wish I wish, I can stay home and get fat everyday. :(

Sometimes I think, I'm just out of my mind. Whateverrrrrrrrrrr ~ Went to the airport to pick up my brother today, yeah he's back from phillipines, after a month! He got gifts for me too, thanks a million! Gonna stay home tomorrow again! Sigh! Maybe I should go out and get my shoes, should I?!

I wonder if I'd come home saying that orientation is fun, that's kind of unlikely though. I hope I'd meet awesome people! Life with uncertainties certainly suck very much.

K my life sux for now. HAHA! Okay, byebye! ;)

don't say you do when you don't

2010-04-10T22:56:00.001+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIES,

YO PEOPLE, HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON IS SO NICE, AND I WISHED I HAD A NIGHT FURY TOO. Who wanna go watch 3d with me?! Hahahahahahah, I don't know why but I love typing in caps, sometimes it's a lil irritating but I like it. Gosh, school term's gonna start soon, timetable on 13th, and I wish that on 10th and 11th there won't be any papers or something, so I can go with mummy! ;)

Spent my whole day with frostie and junior today, brought them for grooming with mom, played with them, then brought them out for a walk with dad. I think my waking hours are returning to normal, but I hope I can sleep earlier. Suffering from insomnia everyday, I can lie on the bed for 1 hour before falling asleep. I so feel like going universal studios, tsk! Not now, maybe later? Hahahah.

Seriously sometimes, I hate some things ttm. I wish I can control everything, but no I can't. People like to do things and then regret. It's like hurting someone with a knife, then say you're sorry. What's the point. If you knew that you'd regret, why do it in the first place. You know, things will never be the same. Unless you can give in everything, but no not never, am I right? Hah, it's okay.

Byez.

other than sadness

2010-04-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

LOL SAY HI TO MY STEADY, HAHAHAHAHAHA.

HIHIHI, LONG TIME NO BLOG! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Life's good for me because I've gotten my new bb 9700 I love my new phone, and I love my mom. I'm not working anymore since end of last month. I don't even know what I have been doing these few days, everyday waste my time sleeping at home.

Wedding dress is my new love, HAHA I mean the song by Taeyang. You guys should check out the english subs, so nice! What else? Oh I've repeated many times, but in this post, I still wanna say. I'M SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL. I'd miss days lazing around doing nothing and getting fat. And waking up at weird timings like 4 o'clock in the afternoon. HAHAHA!

I'm not gonna laze around anymore, gonna spend my last week (plus) of holidays wisely. I'm gonna do some craft works, yay (!) Shopped for my materials for like 1 hour plus just now, spent a bomb on it too D: Well, I hope I can make something nice. Yay! Coolness.

I don't know what else to blog. But I ain't any emo girl okay, so people don't ask me to cheer up. I'm just expressing my feelings ;) I can't cheer up to much, because I'll get very hyped up and you'll regret LOL. I always talk crap when midnight comes I don't know why. Anyway, gotta go, ciao!

forgotten or not

2010-03-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

When people ask, I tell them I'm so much better than last time. However, uncertainty just keep taking over my heart. Trying so hard, yet I don't know if I'd really let it go. Was it supposed to be this way? I guess no it isn't. Please, let me be free from all these bad feelings.

School's gonna start, not anticipating, excited or anything. Seriously, I've been having no life since last week till now. Boring. Should I continue working when I start school? Ok, shall see till then. Tomorrow's public concert at RP, will it be nice? I hope so.

Shall go read my book now, bye.

right here waiting

2010-03-23T15:52:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted for like ages already.

Haven't been going out lately, just eat work and sleep. School's starting soon, and I'm not looking forward to it at all. Haven't done my enrolment yet, wonder if my place will be given away. Whatever la, who cares man.

I feel like eating hot and spicy shaker fries, wooots :D Gotta go work later, boring. I hope steady comes back like now. Then we can go out and play!

Hahahaha off to prepare for work. Toodles! ;)

cause i see it

2010-03-12T21:38:00.000+08:00

HEYHEYHEY, MY 10 YEARS BESTFRIEND, HAHAHAHA, HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOU AND SERENE JUST NOW. It's really fast, when I think back we knew each other since primary 1. And talking to you, is just so great! Hahahahahaha, see you sooon! :)

Went back to wrss today, and I realize, I MISS SCHOOOOL. Hahahahaha. It's much better than working definitely.

Took up some classes with steady, shall make full use of the last few weeks of my holidays.

Till here.

sick sick

2010-03-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

LIFE SUCKS BECAUSE I'M SICK, BUT I'M GETTING BETTER ALREADY. THANKS FOR ALL THE CONCERN.

I realize my blog is so dead, wonder if I should just delete it. Kind of lazy to update though, hmmm. Anyway, yesterday was a great day before my misery started. Met up with EUGENE SHIM AND BENJAMIN AW, hahahahahahahah. It was damn hilarious because Eugene mixed up Ajisen and Ichiban. We stood outside Ajisen and asked him if he wanted to have lunch at ichiban, he said 'don't want la, all noodles i eat till very sian liao leh.' Then we say got rice, he point at Ajisen's menu and say WHERE GOT. After that, we say this one not Ichiban la! He walked back and saw the sign, hahahah :D Just find it funny, that's why I post, no offence eugene! :) So we ate at ichiban, and then went to timezone after that. Played hyperbishibashichamp, rawkttm. LOL! Played many other games too, hahah! Okay, then after went for dance class with steady, it was awesome ;D

When I got home, I felt really sick and terrible, and I almost died. LOL, I was joking in the last part. I was really sick, but some xtards just wanna go spin tales that I'm not, tomorrow gonna get scolded already I guess? But well, who's gonna give a damn, like yeah. I'm feeling okay now, hope it'll not come again tmr.

Feel quite sad, because Frostie seems like he doesn't like me. Bro wasn't around, and I wanted to take care of him, he scratched me and bit me ): Grow up already, then wings hard already LOL!

K la, I think finally a proper post? (:

Time to go, bye loves!

so over

2010-03-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

I fucking regret whatever I've did last time, because you're just so not worth it. The sight of you just make me wanna puke.

smile-a-day

2010-02-28T02:37:00.000+08:00

Hihi,
I'm tired, really tired. Not mentally, but physically. I realized that I'm gonna fall sick soon, I'm gonna break down somehow. People say I everyday emo, but no !!! I'm fine, just very sick of things.

I decided to continue working for march already, schedule rocks for the time being. I love 4 hours shift, I love working lesser days a week. Gonna have 3 off days in a row tomorrow, love it. Go out go out go out :) Tomorrow gonna go home and pack my stuffs first. Awww, I miss mummy and daddy :(

I can't really see what I'm typing now, because I'm falling asleep -.-

Oh, went to yh's house yesterday. This guy always cheat me and steady's feelings, say what company us, where got !!! Liar laaaaa. LOL. And todayyyy, I met SHUAIGE PHELIX :D Hehehehehe, niceeee ! Thanks for coming down ah, it sure feels good to talk to you and meet you after so long :) Thank you for the card and the ticket, I will surely go. :D

And it's gonna be sunday, monday, tuesday? No. PAYDAY. (Y)

Bye my love.

i am here you are there

2010-02-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

I feel so tired, even when I woke up only at almost 2 today. Why why, what's happening to me? Sometimes I feel sick, physically. Got the faint anytime feeling, LOL. Maybe it's because of work or those stupid emotions. Whatever.

Today's another short but sweet shopping day with steady and her mother. Had a very full and delicious lunch at dtf again, but this time thank you aunty for the treat :) Came back home after that, some things happened which made me feel really upset.

Mummy &Daddy is gonna leave tomorrow, so sad :( Which means I'll be so alone for a week, sigh sigh sigh. I kind of love my march schedule, because it's like so slack. Bad thing is, lesser pay. Awww. K, I should stop complaining. :)

Another irritating work day tomorrow, gonna be alone the whole night tomorrow in the shop. Hate it :(

I wanna go back to school to get the tickets, eugene shim when you free?!?!

Everyone's asleep already, should I go sleep? Yesyes, okay bye loves.

end everything

2010-02-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

I thought my day was perfectly awesome until I realize I felt like dying on my bed the moment I reached home.

forget that

2010-02-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

With love.

I realize I didn't go for work yesterday, because I had stupid cramps. Scoldings tomorrow, I'm sure. Well, I don't care. Work tomorrow again, and I hate it.

Just now had so much fun with brother and nikki, people I love to hang out with and can always count on for help. Next week, we're gonna have more fun I suppose. Should I join dance class with steady? Wonder if I'll have the time, and not quit like the last few times.

I have my new personal space, and this won't be the frequent place I'm gonna rant about my feelings anymore. I shall keep everything to myself, because I just wanna be on my own. I'm not that strong but I have to. Sometimes it just feels like nobody cares, and I feel like giving it all up.

FML.

Bye.

我什么都不想要

2010-02-21T02:12:00.001+08:00

Flipping back to that diary,
I once wrote 'Let all sweet memories stay in my heart forever',
now I realized,
that isn't what I really want now.
All those sweet memories,
are just nightmares to haunt me while I'm feeling low.
Those memories used to make me smile to myself,
now thinking back,
I know I don't want those memories anymore.
I just want to forget you,
get you out of my mind.
I know I'm reaching there,
hope that nothing's gonna come in my way.
Moving on, is the sweetest revenge for you.
Places we once went,
things we once shared,
memories we once had,
everything's gone.
You damaged everything,
and now it's too late.
You didn't know how miserable I used to feel,
till now you still don't..

Help help help, 'cause this is an emergency ): I feel like I'm going to break down soon. Have been listless during work today, almost fell asleep. It's becoming a trend among me and my colleagues to eat whenever we're bored because there's no customers. Spent more than $30 on food today, thanks to steady who wanted to eat ding tai feng and the boredom without customers.

I realized because of work, I missed out on my family gathering today. That's sad. ;(

Bye.

this part of me

2010-02-20T02:17:00.001+08:00

Hi, my birthday celebration was awesome, love it. Thanks to Serene, Joanne, Lester, Gideon, Germaine andddddddd Adrian! :) Thanks for the present, the cake (although we didnt get the chance to eat it) *insert sad face*, the balloon (!!!!) and that cup of jim something , i can't remember. :( Which made me tipsy when the celebration havent even started yet. HAHA, okay, and so we went to harry's then, to MOF to eat eat eat, before that have to go get freee hugs like duh, LOL. It was lucky that I didnt have to complete all thirty but just a few. :D After MOF, went to uncle ringo! Yay, hahahahah. Me and Jo played topgun, okay, seriously it was a great and scary experience. Then went to near esplanade to slack and play truth or dare, was funny and lame shall not elaborate. ANDDDDDDDD, HOME SWEET HOME @ steady's place! Thank you steady and jo for the multi lingual birthday song, super loveeeeeeee. & Nude still owes me a meal, and thanks for joining us. But you still lied to me ): ): ): Awwwwww.

Steady damn funny ah, she actually post something bad on her blog. "Girls like us won't like guys like you" wth wth wth, she actually said that to someone in my contact, so bad right? Sereneeeeeeee, must be kind okay (:
Without that sucker in my life, it's much f better. Everybody knows it. I love my life now though it still sucks, but at least it's much much better. Sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel irritated, sometimes I feel like doing things my way, sometimes I tend to think too much for others, sometimes I hate myself for being like now, sometimes I feel so alone, sometimes I feel that I'm not, sometimes ..

& I'm sorry, you should have met someone much better than me.

I think I'm a lil tipsy now I wonder what's wrong with the post up there but ah whatever. K forget it, bye -.-

Anw, uncle ringo anyone?! A-S-A-P !!! :D

one and only wish

2010-02-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

WOW, IT'S 17TH FEB ALR, AND IT'S MY 17TH BIRTHDAY TODAY.

They say I'm gonna have lots of fun tomorrow, so what are we gonna do? Surely there'll be, PRANKS! Shall see tomorrow. Lots of wishes this year, at least more than last year just in one hour forty five minutes.

CNY was awesome, great, everything nice. How else should I put it? Hahah, though the weather was super duper hot, I was sweating like hell. Well, at least I had fun with my family and relatives. Oh, I forgot to mention that we brought frosty along to our uncle's house and stay over. Everybody was so in love with frosty, and so .. Frosty became very very proud of himself. He didn't care about me already, and he bit me ): Eeeeyer. Played blackjack, and I lost a lot of money. CNY dinner on day two was great, but the performance was shit. And I love reunion dinner @ my uncle's house, oh everything's so nice, love it ;)

Why ain't I feeling sleepy now? That's weird ;P Sighhhhhhs, gonna go work on 18th already, it's like booooooooooring. Yucks.

LOL. EHHHHHHHHH, 2:43AM ALREADY. SHOULD I GO SLEEP? :/ I DONT KNOW. BUT I KNOW I WANNA END THE POST ): SHALL UPLOAD THE PICTURES SOME OTHER TIMES. & Thank you daddy for the uber delicious and expensive meal today. :D Lovelove!

no more no more

2010-02-13T08:09:00.001+08:00

Before I go,

Don't miss me too much ya ppl. I'll be back soon. Can still contact me through phone 24/7 okayyyy. This year's CNY doesn't feel like CNY at all, sighhhhh. This shall be a little getaway I suppose, to calm me down for every fear in me that the something might happen. Me don't like.

Did some last minute shopping yesterday during my break, awww :( So poor thing can. Left early yesterday (Y) I was supposed to be packing yesterday, I used the comp and I fell asleep. I am supposed to be packing now, but I'm down here blogging. ;P

Alright gonna go prepare already, love.

I can't forget all the crazy shit we used to do.
When I loved you just the way you do
Don't wish to hurt you, but I'm left with no choice.
Enjoy your new year.

2010-02-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Work work work :(

Today's a bad day.

Today's a bad day, a bad bad day.
Today's a bad day, a veryyyyyyyyy bad day :(

Something good was I realized someone still cares although he purposely act dao, thank you blmw for the present for vday. Hahah, know nobody will give me then you give right ;P So nice. K la, thank you so so much, it reminds me about the rocher bouquet 2 years ago! And and, thanks for coming down to town just to have dinner with me. Dinner was great. I hope you'll be happy always alright? Don't always give the unhappy face. Smileeeeee! I hope this won't be the last time we have meals together like what you've said.

I didn't want to work tomorrow, and I couldn't get off. Me hate this. Sighhhh, I can't stand people who only think of their own benefits, and not think about others. When they need help, they approach you. When you need help they turn their backs on you. (Y) My decision to not treat anybody good anymore was right.

Gonna quit asap, I can't stand it anymore. FMLLLLLL :(

I'm super pissssed off now. Shall sleep soon, life sux.

frowning

2010-02-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

Hihihi, life's good for everyoneeee?

CNY's around the corner, ohhhhhhhhmygod, I haven't finish shopping yet. :( How? Mummy is the besttttttttt, today bring me around to get my nails and hair done :D Yay lovelove!

Night shift tomorrow, very sad. Night shift again on friday, sad x100000. I thought I can get off, but NOOOOOOOO, that's not gonna happen. Sighhh ): Maybe working isn't that bad also. Sianzzzzzzzzzzzz. Tomorrow night shift with steady, good great awesome. Gonna boost sales and haveeee fun! :]

Now, it's time to .. RANT!

I realized I've changed :( I know you realized it, you've publicized it too. I hate this self, it isn't me too. I didn't think I've hurt you, not even once. I'm sorry if I did. Compared to what you've done, this is nothing. Why should I be the one who's gonna make up for everything when I didn't do a single shit. You know, this shouldn't be the way. You can tell me how much you feel, and all, but you know, actions speaks louder. You've shown nothing. Giving up easily is you, why not change yourself, before trying to change me.

When can I find back the cheerful lwy again. I've got to stop acting like I'm fine. This is killing me, nobody understands, nobody knows. I wished someone would understand..

Friends like you = shit.

all over again

2010-02-08T21:44:00.001+08:00

Helloooooooooooo, k la now appeal results are out, utterly disappointed. Hate it hate it hate it ;( Who's gonna cheer me up now? Awww.

Hanging out alot with steady these few days. Today went shopping with mummy and her. Went back to 313 LOL, so damn sick of that place, but mummy wanna collect her things. Walked around at paragon, hmmmmmmmmm, new bag new wallet everything new? Yeah, soon :)

I feel so sadsadsad. But nvmmmm. LOL, ok la I don't know what can I post about. Happy thing is thatttttttttt, there's commission already ^^ yay yay yay !

Okay, byebyebye ! :D

FML ?

2010-02-03T01:25:00.001+08:00

HELLO, MIE BACK LIAOXZ.

Many people say I very long never blog already, so now, I'm backkkkkkkkk ! :D

HAHAHA, realized that most of the people already know about my posting already, I guess? I appreciate if you people still keep it to yourself, 'cause I think it's not really nice to say out. I don't like, and hate hearing it. Ok, so now I wonder if my appeal will be successful, if not I'm out of this country I suppose, good or great? :x

I hate myself for being such a spendthrift ;( Whose gonna teach me how to save money? I've been saying these again and again, but then hanging out with steady really makes me spend alot LOL! And it's uber saddening that, WE ARE PAYING ADULT FARE NOW!!! I topped up $10 the other day, and I happily tap my card on 912, thinking that it's still 45cents, I didn't tap my card when I got down the bus. The next day, my card balance was $5 dollars plus, I was thinking why was it like that. Until I realize it, when my card is left with $2.55, I have to top up, and minimum value was, $10. WHATTTTTTTT, WHY LIKE THAT. We're still students what :( Just that haven't get into school right, so evil. I feel so sad, it means that, transport is so expensive, and I shouldn't work @ somerset anymore :(

Awwwwwwww, I got my pay already. Quite happy, although it's so little :/

I feel a little pissed, because .. some guys are just being irritating. They just like to assume things, and then keep those idiotic looks. What's wrong with you man, get a life please. -.-

Jojo is hungry now, LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Ok random ;x I don't know what else to say, but I know tomorrow I have to work properly, in case I get scolded! LOL, and sometimes I think it really takes one person to leave or go out of your life, before you'd learn how to cherish. When I realize that I cherish, that person is no longer the same. Friends, they walk in and out of your life. I thought we could be friends forever, but I guess I'm wrong, and it isn't possible right? I don't know, but I can't do anything anymore right. At least, things ain't that bad now.

K LA, I WANT GO ALREADY BYE BYE BYE! SLEEEEEEEEEEEEPY.

just can't take it

2010-01-28T00:06:00.001+08:00

How long more can I keep that smile.

Now, I say.

I'm left with no choice but to go away from here? I guess so. Next week, or next month? I guess as soon as possible. Please stop asking me, 'cause I don't even feel like talking about it. I don't know what to do now, I'm very lost. Ya, I'm afraid that everything will go so wrong, and I don't have the courage to face it. Maybe I should just leave everything and go, at least it's a better way out. Yeah, and I think I should. At least, I can still forget about all these unhappy things too. That's the way, and that's what I want, I suppose. Unhappy, unwilling, but so what? It doesn't change anything.

Yes, I'm going to aust with steady soon already, most probably. I thought it would be after 3 years, but I didn't expect it to be so soon. Perhaps it's the better route, like what I've said.

I wonder why all bad things happen to me all at once. No matter how much it hurts, I have to just go on. Yes, I will and I definitely must get over this. Fell too deeply, just too much to forget. Time will heal, I hope. Ah wth la, I'm seriously damn sick and tired of everything. First come this, then come that. How much more do I have to face? If really so much, now just let me face everything now like pls. I can't stand this anymore. I hate being unhappy everyday. I wish I can blog happily everyday you know? I wish everyday I can tell everyone how happy am I, how awesome is my life. You think I want this? Hah, what a joke. Who would even want to be known as emo, who would want other's attention by such resorts. Fact is, my life isn't complete at all, I only have my family and bffs. Who else? No. Nobody. Last time there's no doubt that whenever I'm upset there'll be people to talk to me and stuffs, now, not anymore. I thought I'd be better off alone, but no I realized I'm not that strong after all. Fuck everything, like yeah. I hope all these will be over.

Forget it man, seriously, I shan't post anymore. Until everything gets better.

Wy wishes someone can tell her what to do, wipe away her tears, and say things will turn out fine.
But nah, it wouldn't, she still have to go anyway.

I'll miss the girl who took initiative to talk to me and be my friend on the first day of school in class, Yingying. The girl who never gets unhappy at anything or anyone, the girl who is always fair. I'll miss having lunch every friday afternoon, with my girlfriends and her. Though we ain't as close as how we used to be already, but I believe, best friends will always never run out of topic no matter how long we don't meet, as long as we keep in contact occasionally. Yes, we're best friends always. All the best, remember to keep in contact. Miss you much :) Maybe I'll join you soon also. Take care!

sweet revenge

2010-01-26T23:49:00.001+08:00

HELLO, HELLO, HELLO!

You know what, STEADY CFM WORKING WITH ME STARTING NEXT MONTH ALREADY, cool or not? I'm so happy, hahahahahahaha. Working is tiring, but recently keep seeing friends at 313.

Went out with my love, Ellie yesterday, hahah ! We combed the whole 313, and bought quite a few things, hahaha. The most surprising thing was, we actually ate the food from almost 3/4 of the stalls @b3, cause we have the coupon booklet. LOLOLOL. I'm gonna cut those fats tomorrow, since it's my off day and I'm @ msia. HAHA! Heheh, best friends don't have to go out always, but then still will have topics to talk about even after a long time. Best friends can do every single unglam actions in front of each other and not feel shy :)

Working is like my routine already, I wonder if I quit next month, what am I gonna do. LOL, and I'm desperately in need of money currently, spent lots of future money already. Now I'm broke, very broke, super broke. 3rd Feb pls come soon T.T I can't wait anymore. I can't stand it when I have to think of what can I eat with only 5 bucks, when the food is so ex @ that place. I should change my bad habit already! Think before spending, this is what others always say. Hahaha, that's why I say I shouldn't hang out too much with steady. xD

Yayayaya, so posting is tomorrow, I'm praying VERY hard that I'll get to the school I want. Hahahahaha. If cannot, I shall appeal until can. ;D

Those wounds just won't heal, the pain is just so real, there's just so much that time cannot erase.

Suddenly after talking to someone just now, I finally think it's time to really put down the past and forget every single thing already. I never imagined that person can be somebody like that, that person didn't used to be like this, or is it that I don't know that person well in the first place. I feel stupid, downright stupid. I will never commit the same mistake again. I realize my life now isn't that bad after all. I am happy, maybe not, at least not unhappy. Too many things have happened, and I'm not the same anymore. Maybe I should listen to another person and not trust people so easy anymore. I'll only trust those who are close to me, or maybe those who understands me well. Maybe moving on is the sweetest revenge? Like what sp said.

:(

live it up

2010-01-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

Hello.

EH, TODAY IS A SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRR ..

working day -.-' Super busy, super crowded, super noisy, super sian. All these can be used to describe today. I've got a feeling I'm starting to dislike my colleague, steady don't like also ;P Abit weird, 'cause starting was okay, then aft that like can really see true colours. But well, steady's gonna become my colleague soon, if possible? Hahah! And if that's so, I'm so gonna love working ^^

Recently, lunch breaks were great for me because on friday, dearest ellie came and find me and we went for lunch together, and today steady came and find :D So good! But that damn bkt actually costed 9$, wthhhhhh plz.

Everyday's a so shopping day, when I go out with Charmaine, she always .. WAH THAT ONE NICE. ;P Then make my heart itchy, cannot stand already then just buy. Go with steady also like that, I think I should just be no-lifer, after work go home slp, don't go walk walk around. Oh, and mummy came and fetch me &steady back just now, and many funny things happened. Today I damn baichi can, I actually walk and bang on the wall while talking on the phone LOL and now, got abit swollen already =='

I remember I have many things I wanna blog, but I can't really remember. I realize actually I am letting go of whatever I used to can't let go already.

You know I'm not referring to you, yet you insisted that it's you, scolded yourself and stuffs. You know I really don't like it when you scold yourself, but yet you're doing it again and again. You know I know you're not that sort of person, you know everything. You chose to believe that whatever things I was saying was you, no it wasn't. I can't control how you think. But, I can only say .. It isn't you. And cheer up.

I can't control whatever's gonna happen, I can't control who's gonna hurt me again, I can't control who's gonna ignore me, get angry at me, dislike me, scold me. Only thing I can control is how I feel, how to look at things positively. It's gonna be hard accepting such facts, but you know, I can only choose to be strong, and no other alternatives, right? I can't be frowning everyday, 'cause that isn't me at all.

Should I go sleep now? Tmr gonna meet steady and go buy clothes before going to work. Kay, great, so I should go bathe and get my butt on the bed and sleep. Nights loves.

Kay, bye!

another illusion

2010-01-21T18:12:00.001+08:00

I'm supposed to be working now ;P But I'm at home already, hahahahah. Wasn't feeling that well today when going to work, and mummy decided to fetch me to work, so she go open shop with me and she bought something. She went shopping while waiting for me to knock off early, so I left at around 12 plus. We went to walk around awhile and shop for some stuffs, after that went back to heeren to get my black capri :D After buying all the stuffs, then came home which took like quite long.

I read steady's blog over and over again, it's like so touching LOL. Some parts are so funny, we insult each other everytime LMAO! Okay it's like funny can. Like few days never meet jo & steady feel abit weird, 'cus last week we met like almost everyday. Hahah.

Siannnnnnnzzzzzzz, work work work, when should I quit? :/ CNY is coming and I'm excited, 'cus I'll be quite far away from home! I wonder when will school start, I'm kind of looking forward for school to start. I hope I won't be posted to other school, me want SP! I think 3/4 of our cohort all chose SP, which is like cool. HAHA!

Okok, I don't wanna blog any further, more things to do. Bye!

away, far away

2010-01-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

Because you know, letting go is always the hardest part, but I have to let go. Friends, are never meant to be there forever. The last thing I would want to do is to explain myself, because it isn't that superficial, it takes time to show. Maybe someday people will understand, maybe not which is the end of everything I guess. I thought it wouldn't, but again, I can't control. I cherished a lot, but it's not meant to be. I just hope everything stay as now at least. I know, there's still people who care. Thank you to those whom I haven't contact for a long time, but yet still remember me and still care for me. And thank you bffs for being so understanding and not look at me like how others do.

I wonder if I should continue working like yeah, I feel that the salary is a bit too low and it isn't enough for me. Went for dinner with Charmaine, Kz and his friend today. It was so last minute to meet kz cus he texted me only this afternoon. He's so funny like omg, LOL. Hanging out with charmaine is fun, in the end we went to shop around for awhile and I bought a skirt, I am happy that I finally found one super nice one which caught my attention. It also cost a bomb and I'm broke, really broke. LOL! I shall go back to adidas to get the black capri soon also. ;D MUST!

I feel like going slack @clark quay again, *hints to jo & steady. Hahahah! Or maybe we should go rebel ;P Lmao! Morning shift tomorrow, like everyday morning shift one. LOL! Cool :) I like it, but next week more night shifts coming up. Pay day is still like 2 weeks away? :/ Everyday morning shift I also late one, like wth. LOL.

I hate it when I can't do anything to change things to how I want it to be.
I hate it when explaining myself doesn't help.
I hate it when I thought I can talk to you, but I know I shouldn't anymore.
I hate it when you ask me to find someone else.
I hate it when I realized I'm not a good girl.
I hate it when my life is so empty.
I hate it when life isn't about school or studying.
I hate it when I can't come home anytime I want to.
I hate it when I'm always so alone but yet I'm used to it.
I hate it not when I know I can go out with my bffs. :D
I hate it when all those stupid and idiotic images kept appearing in my mind.
I hate it when can you actually say all those things and do all these, and still feel nonchalant about it.
I hate it when I actually can't don't care about what others say.

Seriously, it'll be the last time I'll get hurt, I never wanna be so stupid anymore. Please don't try anything funny already, because it isn't funny anymore. If you think by hurting me and making me upset is fun, try harder. 'Cause I'm not gonna entertain you anymore. I hope our paths will never cross anymore. Maybe or should I say, for sure, I'd be better off on my own.

Oh my god! I wonder what should I eat tmr ;P Like food court food is so damn sian -.- already, so ex and boring. Plus today's dinner costed a bomb already. HAHAHA. I'm not like kz so rich ;( lollllll, kay la, I'm gonna go sleep already. Nights.

I(L)MyMummy! (L)(L)(L)(L)

so over it

2010-01-19T23:03:00.005+08:00

Hello, me ish here tuu bl0gxz. LOL twitting is such a chore man.

My life's much better now, except work is tiring and I can't seem to get up on time everyday. I'm wondering if I should get another higher paying job though. I wanna go out with Jojo and Steady A-S-A-P. LOL, seriously talking to them like damn fun la. HAHAHA. Anyway, I feel like going partyworld soon!

Now I wanna say,
I don't even care already now, or maybe I can't. Seriously, ever since those words came out from your mouth, I knew it wouldn't work anymore. I never imagined you were someone like that, but what to do, that's the fact already, isn't it? I thought I can hold on, but seriously I'm breaking down if this goes on. I know I'd find a better way out soon, I know I can't be stuck right here. I know that I can't be affected anymore. I listened to a song on my iPod today, the lyrics went like, "Can't believe that I'm the fool again, I thought that this will never end, how was I to know, you never told me." It's should have been over so long ago. I wouldn't wanna be so stupid to let you say those insulting comments about me. Another thing is thanks for insulting me, if not I wouldn't know I should grow up already. It's not those times where all of us are still young and innocent. Or you have changed already, I shouldn't be so trusting anymore. Now I know, I shouldn't read so much into everything. Because it doesn't even mean anything right from the start, meant to be a prank or a joke. Now you should be happy, that I fell right into it right. I'm gonna stand up from where I fell, I'm gonna be stronger than ever. Because, I HATE THE FEELING OF BEING HELPLESS.

And I don't even wanna bother to go please other people when other people can just give those kind of attitude for nothing. Please, the world doesn't only revolve around you or me okay. Why should I even bother to go try to go change myself just to suit others or a group. Seriously, life's more than that. I'm gonna live the life I want and not care about people who thinks only about themselves and are so insensitive about how others feel. Why procrastinate when you know problems doesn't only lies with the others. I shouldn't even bother saying so much, because good things always end fast. Whatever promises are never kept, it's all thrown away or forgotten. Life's never fair, I'm sure of this.

And if you think by doing this, it's gonna bring me down. Go ahead, I'm not happy, but you know what? It'll be over like in no time. I'll get back to where I really belong, follow back in what I used to believe in.

Seriously thank you to people who read my blog and show concern by texting me or calling me or talking to me on msn about my recent posts, you guys know I appreciate it damn lots, and I (L) all of you xD Heheheh, best friends shall always remain as bff.

Yeah, and I'm gonna be random now.
I realized to buy a drink @clinic, it'll take like my pay for a day + $10. LOL, super expensive can. Suddenly feel that life is so linked to money. A few piece of paper can change someone's day HAHAHA! But now, money isn't that important after all to me, 'cause I haven't plan to start shopping for CNY clothes though I bought some clothes already ;P Everyday I'm trying to save as much money as possible, by eating very little. In the end, I end up buying stuffs which are like not really important. Very d-o-t-s. Maybe I should stop hanging out too much with steady, 'cause she always influence me to spend a lot of money. Lmao! Hahahah, yesterday me and steady so poor thing. Go eat mac, and actually left with totally $0. Then like need slowly count all the coins when we pay. LOLOLOL. Lucky today I don't have to starve already :D I feel like eating twister fries! And my eyecandy never work already I think, didn't see him recently. Awww. Kay la, don't wanna continue random-ing already if not I'm gonna have to continue for like 249058247072 years. HAHA. Byebye xD

EH! I SEE JOJO'S POST I FEEL LIKE POSTING SMTH ALSO.*NOTE TO JO&STEADY!

I SUPER LOVE IT WHEN WE CAN HAVE HEART-HEART TALK TGT ALWAYS ALSO, AND SUPER HOPE THIS FRIENDSHIP WILL STAY LIKE THAT, CAUSE WE ALL LOVE EACH OTHER :D HAHAHA! AND WE'RE SO GONNA GO BACK TO CLINIC FOR THE SUPER EX BUT COOL DRINK SOON OR GO REBEL ;P

To my ex-boyf whom I thought was the one, thanks for all those memories you have given me. All those encouragement when I needed them. Though things didn't turn out happy for us, at least we had those beautiful memories. 2 years, sweet bitter sour all we have experienced. Thank you, because you thought me how to really love someone. Too many things happened, I can never accept it. It's over for so long already but I thought it's time I should say this. Maybe if our fate is bounded tgt, we'd meet again, we shall see. I hope, at least we're still friends. All the best in everything you do. When you meet w any problems, can still talk to me, I'll be there, as a friend.

damaged

2010-01-18T02:51:00.002+08:00

MY HEART IS DAMAGED, OH DAMAGED. LOL ==" Ya like as if, it's like perfectly fine right now. NOW SOMETHING HAPPENED TO FROSTY, AND IT'S MY FAULT? THANKS AH. I TRIED TO CARE, AND PPL ASK ME TO FK OFF. NVM, FOREVER NOBODY WILL KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE DONE FOR THAT PERSON. DO SO MUCH ALSO NO USE, IT DOESN'T APPLY ONLY FOR THIS. FOR MOST OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK, IT'S THE SAME FKING CASE. TMD, SERIOUSLY LA, TREAT PPL SO GOOD GOT WHAT USE. I SWEAR, I SWEAR I WILL NEVER BE GOOD TO ANYBODY ANYMORE. I ONLY CAN SAY, BE GOOD TO OTHERS, PPL WON'T ALWAYS BE GOOD TO YOU. THEY WILL JUST TURN BACK AND HURT YOU EVEN MORE CAUSE THEY THINK YOU'RE A FOOL. AND THE BEST THING IS THE HURT DONE WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN ANYMORE. NAIVE, SO NAIVE. I THOUGHT TREATING PPL WELL, PPL WILL DO THE SAME. HAH, WHAT A DAMN JOKE CAN. I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE THIS DAMN LIFE, I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME, I HATE EVERYTHING AROUND ME. FROM TODAY ONWARDS, I'LL JUST SHUT UP AND LIVE MY OWN LIFE. CALL ME BITCH OR WHAT, I DON'T CARE OK. EVEN IF I CRY OR WHAT, IT'S MY OWN PROBLEM, I DON'T NEED SARCASTIC COMMENTS OR ANYONE TO CARE. THANKS LIKE SERIOUSLY FOR ALL THESE.

I can only say I'm sorry to frosty, maybe it's because of my work and stuffs, maybe it's me being impatient and stuffs. Sorry, I really am. Tmr when I go back home, I can never take care of you or play with you anymore. Only can act like I don't know you, and never seen you before. Much as I want to, I can't anymore and I'm not allowed to. I hope you can sense, that I still really care for you.. I hope you will get well soon, 'cause I'll pray for you. Thinking of this, I can't help but to hate myself now. Sorry...

It's not only about love anymore, it's about everything in my life now. Now I realized, I don't need anyone to be there for me anymore, because, I should have knew that I was all alone since the beginning, it's me who was imagining things, me who was thinking too much. Silly. I hope I can get over this soon. I really feel damn terrible in my heart right now.

Thanks steady and jo, for being there. Going out with you guys really can cheer me up. Without you all to comfort me or stuffs, just the company washed every bad things away.

Thanks kz for trying to cheer me up always, don't feel bad about not being able to cheer me up, 'cus your effort is more than enough. I realize you're a nice friend, thanks alot. 'Cause always when nobody wanted to care, you'd be the first to do so. Thanks for the thought for thinking of accompanying me out or stuffs. Really proud to have a friend like you. Can't seem to say it in person to you, but hope you'd see this. Thanks alot.

AND,
THANKS ESP TO WHAT YOU SAID MAN , I'LL RMB AND NEVER FORGET.
IT'S LIKE THE BIGGEST IMPACT CAN. SERIOUSLY, THANKS ALOT LA HOR. =="

BYE -.-
I thought even going through the toughest heartbreak, I can smile it off. Now, I lost that smile because of guilt, but I'd stay strong.

*EDITTED.
My mood seemed better today already, but it doesn't change my mind to treat other ppl well though. I wanna change my lifestyle, don't wanna live this kind of life already. Everyday sleep at 4 or 5am, wake up early in the morning. Seriously more and more shag everyday, today some more wear sunglass w steady go out like LOL. It's especially torturing when I feel so tired and sleepy yet those images would still come into my mind and make me can't sleep. In school also stress, now no school still stress. Like no difference can, just that now everyday slack and do nothing. Feel so tired now, I'm gonna skip dinner and go sleep alr. Night ppl.

love stood still

2010-01-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

I'm in a super irritated mood today, and I guess offended don't know how many ppl already. Sorry, I just can't control this stupid emotions of mine. Can't help to keep feeling upset about many things, I feel like typing all the stars out, but I doubt it'll work either. I've been feeling restless for the whole day also, can't sit still or stand still. Made a few errors during work today also, zzz. When my fam talk to me nicely, I actually can't talk nicely back. Wtf is going on with me man, this is so not me, so not wy. What's wrong .. Everything's just too wrong, I guess.

Partyworld with Jojo and Steady yesterday was fun. Long time since we went, like few months already.

ATTENTION TO DARYL (!!!!)

Suddenly know you going other place to study, I feel sad :( Although we seldom contact nowadays, but we've been good friends since pri sch right! Last time, we also always go school together every morning by car right right right? ALL THE BEST TO YOUR FURTHER EDUCATION OKAY, I HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON K! GOOD FRIENDS ALWAYYYYYYS! :D Anw, I like the way we can joke with each other with anything, hahahahah!

Now I knw, it doesn't mean anything at all. That's reality, so cruel.

beautiful nightmare

2010-01-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

LIFE SUCKXZ TTM. RAWR.

I was thinking of doing a proper post today, but I wonder what to say. I can't really see clearly, having blur vision LOL. Okay, it's better now. Oh, and I'm not having dinner today, LOL. Time for diet LOLOLOLOL. I came back for so long already, but no frosty spotted, oh no! I wonder where he go.

Yesterday before going back to school to get results, I met with Ellie and had breakfast with her. So longggg then meet her once, hahah! It's like great la, 'cus we can still talk alot! After that went to school and stuffs, was so tensed up before getting results LOL. Yeah yeah, so after that went home tgt with SHUAIGE PHELIX and eugene! LOL, then smth bad happened, after that then I went to cwp to walkwalk, yvonne (my colleague) came over and find me, so nice of her. She always cheers me up, no matter at work or outside, so nice :D After that went home, come out awhile then go to steady's place to find jojo and steady. Like we sat there for so damn long, I can't even figure out what course I wanna go can. While their papers are filled with courses of their interests, mine was blank :( shall sit down and think again tonight.

This morning pei joanne go marsiling there work, then bought breakfast @325, and steady pei me go work at somerset LOL! She actually came to my shop and make trouble one lor, keep kajiao me. Then keep try the clothes, LMAO! One funny thing was when I was serving customer, she actually stood beside me like she was serving the customer too HAHAHA! Funny like what only. She left at around 12 plus, then I left at 1 something, we went back to school. Then went ichibannnnnn to eat, the food super nice (Y) LOL.

Tomorrow is my off day, but I haven't really worked full shift for quite long already. So it's still the same. Wonder what to do tmr, like super sian.

I wonder if whatever that happened to me is predestined, destined that I'd always be so unlucky. I'm all out of words, like seriously ..

Whatever comes, I'd still be that happy wy, I hope.

first and last

2010-01-12T02:46:00.000+08:00

Hello :)

It's like 2:38am now, and I'm working morning shift tmr. Jo is working even earlier than me also! But we two are still awake when we should be asleep like 1 hour plus plus plus ago. We kept talking and like thinking of something yet nothing LOLOLOLOL. So we came out and cooked instant noodles, and played w webcam. I realize I can't finish my cup noodle but jojo can finish omg!

Got results today, it isn't as bad as I thought, though its not good either. Whatever.

So many things happened recently, and I'm overwhelmed.

Work tomorrow, another sian day without anyone to talk to again D: Maybe going back sch with Jo and Steady to pass up the testimonial thing.

Yay full alr, can go slp alr. Bye.

there's nth wrong w being alone

2010-01-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

There's nothing wrong with being alone, hah! Seriously, I've been wasting so much of my time recently. LOL. Last time I really hated eating alone be it at food courts or wherever, now I think it's okay. After all, we're born alone, and when we die, we're alone too. Make sense? Yeah it does. Still, I'd prevent myself from eating alone at food courts, to not feel lonely. I hope I don't have to work anymore. I wish I can faster start school or whatever, but I'm sure I'd be whining that school's tiring or boring or whatever stuffs :x

Cut my hair just now, it's still safe, cause I didn't cut it really short, though I had the urge to do that. Argh, I wish I can just make up my mind. LOL. Sometimes, love songs are so irritating, sometimes it just can make you ponder about lots of stuffs. Hahahaha, currently very in love with the song "Falling for you". I think it's really nice :D

Just back from short shopping trip with mummy, LOL. Short and sweet, 'cus got lots of stuffs back. She's just so good, and I hope I'd get to buy that gucci sunglass soon. My mind is just filled with myself now, I really don't wish to think of any other things. It's okay if things are happening not the way I want it to be.

Frosty is just so cute la, just now on the car he actually fell asleep on my arms, and he's really like a baby. Awww, love frosty ttm! When we brought him to the pet shop, everyone was actually fighting to sayang him and stuffs like that. I wonder how long more can I carry frosty like this D: He's growing so fast, gonna be a big boy(dog) soon HAHA!

Work again tomorrow, spoil mood D: I wish I don't have to work, but luckily, sunday is off day. Heheheh! Still kind of tensed up because monday is coming, too bad have to rush to work after the whole thing, if I'm not wrong? :/ Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnz. LOL.

ANW, SIS ROCKS TTM :D SHE, OOPS IS HE ACTUALLY TOLD ME SMTH WHICH MADE ME SO TOUCHED T.T THANKS SIS ! YEAH, SIS IS SO NOT A TITLE ANYMOREEEEEEEEEE! HAHAHA!

K la, I should stop blogging already, I go take care of frosty alr (:
Bye loves.

maybe that's where i belong

2010-01-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

HI SUCKERS. I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ME. FUCK EVERYTHING LIKE YEAH. I GIVE UP I GIVE UP I GIVE UP, ON EVERYTHING. WHAT I WANT ALWAYS NEVER COME TRUE, ALWAYS GET FALSE HOPE FOR EVERYTHING. IF YOU THINK IT'S SO FUN, NO IT'S NOT OKAY. SICK AND TIRED OF THIS LIFE, EVERYDAY WORK EAT SLP WORK EAT SLP. NO LIFE LIKE WHAT ONLY. YUCKS. MONDAY GET RESULT SOME MORE, HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT! D: PLS DON'T ASK ME HOW DID I DO, CUS SURE NOT GOOD. SO JUST STFU K.

TALKING TO STEADY NOW, SHE REALLY MAKE ME LAUGH LIKE WHAT. SHE KEEP TYPE THOSE STUPID WEIRD CHINESE WORDS, WHICH IS LMAO. LOL. SHE SO DISGUSTING SOMEMORE SHOW ME HER CHEST IN THE WEBCAM LOL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, KEEP GIVE STUPID FACE SOMEMORE.

I'M STILL FEELING SO FRUSTRATED. OMG, WHO'S GONNA SAVE ME D: I NEED SOMEONEEEEEEEE TO TALK TO. LOL. THIS IS SHIT LOL.

FORGET IT, LIKE GOT PPL SO GOOD LOL. KK, REPLY TAGS.
SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG, AND THX FOR TAGGING.
I FORGET I REPLY TILL WHERE SO I JUST REPLY AT RANDOM.

WAISIONG, THEN YOU GO FALL DOWN ALSO AND HAVE YOUR OWN WOUND LUR LOL.
JEN, THANKS FOR THE TAG & HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON.
ELLIE, LMH ONLY MAH, NOTHING ONE LOR. I THINK IT'S MORE PRACTICAL TO LOOK AT GUYS AROUND US LOLOLOLOLOL.
ZUIAI, I TOOK SOME PICTS, BUT NOT CLEAR ONE. HMM, YOU ASK FROM SERENE, SHE GOT VIDEOS AND STUFFS (:
CESLIE, OF COURSE RMB YOU :D SO LONG NVR SEE YOU ALSO, GOT MISS ME? ;P I MISS YOU! HAHAHA! YEAH I WENT, NOT VERY COOL, THE TIME SO SHORT.
JERENE, YEAH, YOU'RE SO GREAT. BUT SO LONG NVR GET TO TALK TO YOU ALREADY LOL SO SAD ;( BUT WELL, SEE YOU SOON IF POSSIBLE :)
REAGAN, SIS! WORDS FROM YOUR MOUTH 90% ALL VERY FUNNY. LOL. 10% IRRITATING LOL LOLLL. F3 F3 F3!
EUGENE, YES IT'S YOUR NAME, COOL RIGHT :D I'M SO GOOD LIKE OMG. LOL.
SERENE, STEADY ACTION LIKE WHAT ;P GO OUT W ... THEN ACTION W ME LIAO LA NOW :O HAHAH! TODAY NO WORK, SO NO NEED TO FIND ALRD. SIGHHHHH, LIFE'S SO HARD :/
SINGPING, YEAH, LOL FAST RIGHT :P IF NOT LATER PPL SNATCH AWAY.
SHUAIGE, SHUAIGE PHELIX!!!! I FEEL SO SAD THAT I CAN'T GO TO SCHOOL WITH YOU AROUND LOL. DAYS THAT CAN'T SEE SHUAIGE PHELIX MAKES ME FEEL THAT SG NO SHUAIGE :/ LOLLLLL! HOPE TO SEE YOU ASAP K! :D

I REALIZE THIS WHOLE POST IS IN CAPS, I THINK I'M ABIT EMOTIONAL LOL. OK, NVM. LIFE SUCKXZ ): I WISH DECEMBER COMES BACK AGAIN, OR MAYBE 0101 LOL. AH WHATEVER.

so complicated

2010-01-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Finally back in msia, feel good :D And, I love it! Frosty's sleeping in my room today, cool, at least there's company when I'm sad. Ahahaha.

This few days of work was okay, except for the rushing part everyday. I hate it when I'm almost late everyday, and have walk super fast. I wonder why am I still late when I already wake up 3 hours before working time. Suddenly I miss school alot, like those days where you can be with friends, joke around and stuffs. Life like now sucks alot like seriously. I feel so empty.

That day Jasmine, Yanshi and Sokkeng came to my working place ahahah cool :D Great to see friends laaaaaa. Steady and Joanne came over too, but they act like they don't know me LOL! Had break, then went to eat with them. Still love them most la, can talk like whatever topics one, don't have to keep thinking. Ate at saycheeze I think, 3 hours of work gone just like that. LOLLLL, meet up soon again kay! Miss the girls so much also!

Today Ben(Aw), SP and Matthern accompanied me to work by mrt, thanks a million :D Sorry I had to rush to work because I'm late already, meet up again soon kay (:

Mummy is so good, even aft I work still give me moneyyy :D Before I get pay I already bought lots of stuffs. LOL, got to know the girls beside our shop and they gave me discounts for what I bought xD Cool !

Suddenly I really don't even knw how to put my feelings into words, my life now is so aimless. I feel like talking to someone, yet I can't and don't have a chance to. I wanna say so much, yet I'm choked by my words. I want to tell someone everything, yet someone won't listen.

I wish there's someone who's willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on and tell me everything's gonna be okay. I hope I can walk and bang my head and lose all my memories, and restart everything all over again.

And maybe we're really not meant to be together, as you said. You mentioned breaking up once a few days, I really don't know if this r/s means anything to you. I don't know, really lost. It's up to you whether you wanna do anything 'bout it. I'm gonna stay right at the same spot. Sometimes I wonder if you like her, maybe? Maybe not. I guess she can really comfort you and stuffs like this, while I can't. After so much, I realised this isn't the life I'm asking for, I want someone who'd care and listen to me. Maybe you can, just that you're not willing to. I really don't know, but well .. let fate decide. Our sweetest memories, are all memories that you won't relive them.

Wonder what am I gonna do tomorrow, take care of frosty? Or should I go shopping, I think, BOTH xD HAHA, okay, time to slp. I love everyone, but I hate my life :( Maybe I should change, because this character shouldn't be me. I should always put myself before others, right? Think so much for other for fuck, ppl won't even give a fuck about you. This is what I can say about outside society, work or whatever. Feel so stressed up now, talk to me, anyone? :/

I go sleep already since frosty is asleep now. Goodnight.

why is this so

2010-01-02T02:14:00.000+08:00

Cuteeeeeeee? :D Hahah, it's finally our pet dog! Lovelove ^^,

Yesterday was the first day of work. I don't know how to describe it, but it was okay I think working there is fine though. Don't wanna complain already. Anyway, I'm having night shift for 3 consecutive days & that sucks, which means I'm only gonna reach home by midnight. Scared T.T

Sometimes things are just so obvious.

I've so much to say, yet who's there to listen. I feel like crying, yet who's there to stop my tears from dropping. There's just so much in my mind, too much that I can't comprehend. I wish I wasn't like that. I wish I'm not me. I wish that there's a friend who'd understand me. Sigh. Never mind, perhaps this is meant to happen. Nobody knows me.

Forget it, no point saying already. Bye.

at the borderline

2009-12-31T01:48:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, the last day of 2009. Happy or sad?

I feel nothing at all. In fact, I'm very frustrated and worried about something, I wish I had someone to talk to. Unfortunately no, only one person. That person is asleep already. Sigh. I wish it doesn't come true, and I believe it wouldn't, pls ):

I found myself a job, if it was a month ago, I'd be jumping and happy about it. Now, I'm not, because I don't really have the mood to work and commit to the job LOL. I'll be working at 313 @somerset.

2009 is (not was) it's still 2009 LOL, an eventful year for me, made many friends, met good ppl, met bad ppl, of course studied hard for exams, reached 2 years w my boy(hope he's still mine tho), & I still can't believe I'm out of the school alr T.T abit miss school. LOL. Ya, I hope 2010 be a better year. I only have one wish. That is that thing to not happen, I'd do anything to not let it happen. Plsplspls T.T

Mummy is so awesome she actually pei me go for my interview, and bought the skullcandy headphone for me, so nice so nice :D Heheheh. I feel so tired. And I think I should start to slp early already, let's start now. Me go sleep, bye.

I think I'm being irritating by not replying tags when I'm blogging so much. Shall reply next year kay? :D Sorrayeeeeeeeeeee.

I hope you'd be there to stand by me, when I'm so afraid.

seen through this

2009-12-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna force things anymore, but I still feel like ranting on some stuffs. So don't bother me pls.

I wonder why has b buying an iPod Touch seem to be your problem, stupid bitch. Okay, that's basically what puzzles me. But I don't mind though, twit all you want kay. 'Cus I don't believe b will be so blind, although b is for blind, but I believe he's not, lol. Whatever la k, maybe you're just being like this just because *** don't want you anymore. Now I know why. Maybe you wanna attract his attention, or whatever? LOL, I don't know, and don't care. Go do whatever you want. Don't even have to feel sorry for me that B is treating me this way, I don't need that if you are. I won't even compare myself with you. Can go complain to b, tell him I say this I say that. I'll see if he's gonna come shout at me or not. I have never scolded anyone like how I did in the previous post on my blog before, just nice you're the first. Okay forget it, I don't wanna continue this pointless thing anymore. Try harder bitch. And tell you what, all those tweets are so entertaining :O twit more okay! Duh.

Done with ranting, hope this will be the last time. I've seen through everything, maybe I should give up, or maybe I shouldn't. I'm not sure either. Well, time will show.

Through this, I really know I have so many nice friends around me. Thank you friends, I really love all my friends :D Let this be my learning point and where I can grow up and be more mature from this.

Recently I feel very weird, I can't really fall asleep until around 4 or 5 am, is that insomnia? I can't stand staying at home for the whole day, I will feel very empty D: Awww. Life like that. LOL. Saw a super cute husky yesterday, omgggg. And I hope bro succeeds in persuading my parents to buy it :D It's like SUPER SUPER SUPER DUPER CUTE! Okay, I don't really know what to blog because my life recently is all about quarrels. Well, I guess rainy days are gonna be over soon.

Sometimes I think I'm so naive, I thought that I can relive the past again. When it's like so impossible.

the hardest part

2009-12-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

You asked me to wait for you to be with that fking bitch right, I wait. Since that fking bitch says you damn cute right. I don't know what that fking bitch wants. But I tell you what I want, I want us to be like how we used to be. I want you to love me and only me. I want you to be you not forcing yourself to be someone else. Now, I know it's impossible. Although I don't feel good, but if you so wanna be with that bitch, then go. And to, stop pushing me to other ppl. Life's so unfair. I hate life. I hate crying. I hate being out of love.

I hate life like that, I'm not happy no I'm not.
You'd realize someday, that you'd regret this choice you make.

I'll get over you, I guess.
Jiayou wy.
When nobody loves you, learn how to love yourself.

cherish

2009-12-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

Thank you for the x'mas present, b.

Merry Christmas !

Regarding the previous post, I thank everybody who came forward and show concern. You people really sweet, and I love you guys :} I wanna thank esp JERENE YEO! You're so great :D

I decided maybe I shouldn't brood over the past anymore, just look forward to the future. Maybe that post isn't fair to him, so I'm gonna remove it. I only hope that he'd be different, and back to the person I once knew. One last chance for him, and for me. Cherish, is th word.

Celebrated x'mas eve with many ppl yesterday, it was awesome! Bbq-ed @jerene's place, and then had the cake and those stuffs. Ya, it was really fun. The scene in her house was abit like gambling den LOL, but everyone was playing uno, mahjong, and stuffs while me and jernu played twister, twister is like .. TIRING. LOL. Halfway through kinda felt like sleeping but couldn't fall asleep, while many already fall asleep. So played mahjong with them, I never even won once -.-' Stupid sis, I wonder why no matter how he talk also so funny one. LOL. Okay, then finally 9 something or so? They went to mac, and I went to sleep =x After that jerene and jen came back talk awhile then they fell asleep, and I went to find mum and dad for lunch at breeks. And came home, slept until night :x Overall, the celebration ytd was fun :)

I don't care if I'm unreasonable, but stupid bitch, pls know your limit.

breaking free

2009-12-24T00:50:00.002+08:00

Went out to shop again with mummy today @bugis, she's so cool :D She got me a diamond pendant for my chain, hahahahah, counted as x'mas present I guess? After that we bought some clothes, and went home. Never really shopped much, because both of us no mood today D: But she's the best best best, super loves!

-THIS PART REMOVED-

Last time, you used to say good night, love you and stuffs like this each and every night. On my birthday, you got me two eeyores, one big one small, bought me a bouquet of rochers on valentine's day. Send me home everytime, go everywhere I wanna go with me. When I'm angry, you will try your best to make me okay again. When I'm sad, do your best to cheer me up. When I cry, wipe off my tears. When I smile, smile with me. Where are you, baby.

Baby says : I'm gone ... ( i guess maybe not)

I know it's over. I loved you so deeply, but it's all gone.
And this christmas I will not be happy, because my wish is never gonna come true.. Unless you realise it.

fate or luck

2009-12-23T02:05:00.001+08:00

HELLO PPL, I'M BACK HOMEEEEEEEEE.

Went out with steady, ying and ellie yesterday. Had fun with them, walked to many places. Bought some clothes :D HEHEHE. And caught up with each other's life! Go out again soon alright.

The fan meeting was awesome except ... ... .... :( AHHHHHHHHHHHH. DON'T SAY ALR DON'T SAY ALR. LEE MIN HO WAS HOT, HANDSOME, CUTE, MACHO, SEXY, WHATEVER NICE WORDS YOU CAN DESCRIBE HIM WITH. HE'S MY NEW LOVE AGAIN HAHAHAHA. BECAUSE I THOUGHT GEORGE WAS HOTTER, NOW I THINK ALMOST SAME OR MAYBE MINHO IS HOTTER? :x He sang 'My Everything' in live, it was SUPERB. LOVE HIM TTM. Steady and me got the 148 tix, but we're still quite in front, like very near to 188 seats, could see his face CLEAN AND CLEAR. HAHAHAHA.After that we waited awhile, then went to newton to have supper, in the end realized he was actually eating there too. BUT, NO FATEEEE. WELL, AT LEAST WE BREATHED THE SAME AIR xD LOL! Oh, and I took some pictures, but isn't that clear, only few are clear (forget bring my damn camera). What matters is I saw him with my own eyes :D

Today, went out w jo and steady. Played @prizestage LOL, guess what? We got lots of stuffs back =P COOL! HAHAH thanks to that super friendly uncle who taught us and help us. :D

OKAY LA, THESE FEW DAYS WAS FUN !

not about love

2009-12-21T12:33:00.001+08:00

HELLO, IT'S 21ST DEC TODAY, GUESS WHAT? WE'RE GONNA SEE MINHO LIKE, TONIGHT?! WOW :D HAHAHAHA.

Yesterday @4am me and steady went mad, laughing at the webcam pictures over and over again, couldn't stop laughing like what only. LOL. It's like omfg funny and we couldn't take the pictures because we can't keep still LMAO! And mentioning that, I'm super tired for sleeping at 7 am the previous day, and almost 5 am yesterday. Pimples popping out already :( I should sleep early tonight, but I'm afraid I'm too excited after the fan meeting HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay, yesterday me and steady went to sakae sushi for dinner. We ordered like quite a lot of food, after that, we found the service a little noob LOL, poor I mean. So we decided to go complain, LOL LOL LOL. You know what? THE SUPER CUTE MANAGER GAVE US A DISCOUNT, LIKE ALMOST 50% OF THE TOTAL PRICE, COOL RIGHT. OMG OMG OMG. :D YAY. HAHA!

AND NOW, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GO OUT. BEFORE THAT SHOW YOU PPL SOME FUNNY PICTURES :D LIKE YAAAAAAAA, FUNNY AND ...... SCARY (!)

STEADY AND ME GOT CRAZY OVER THIS OKAY BYE!

complications here and there

2009-12-20T05:28:00.001+08:00

IT'S 5:08 IN THE MORNING NOW, AND WHAT? I'M STILL NOT ASLEEP -.-

I feel that there's so much on my mind, yet there's no one to share. People who understand me the most aren't there anymore. Sigh, I feel so troubled. Whatever, nobody cares anyway. It's my life and my own problems after all. I hate everything that is happening now. I hate being so afraid of facing those things. But so what? Life suckxz.

Went ktv with family just now, it was cool. Long time since we went out as a family and came back so late, even had prata just now. LOL.

Have been watching Hi, My Sweetheart since 2 just now. The show is SUPERB, but sanguo is still WAY MUCH BETTER. HOW COME EPISODE 43 IS STILL NOT UP, RAWR. Having to wait one episode each week sucks plenty, I wonder if I should stop watching and continue only when everything is up already? :/

Gonna meet up with Ellie &Yingying with steady on monday, long time since we saw each other? Lol. Kind of excited, and hope monday comes soon. I think me and steady are going to see LMH, AHAHAHA, HOW GREAT AND AWESOME CAN THIS BE. Yaaaaaaaaaaah, let's breathe in the air in sg harder tmr, because at 8pm, minho is gonna land in sg! How cool :D THOSE WHO SAY LMH UGLY STOP BREATHING @ 8PM LOLOLOLOL ! UNTIL TUESDAY.

Anw, congrats to bster for his awesome results :)

Oh and crap, I hate the everlast shoes I bought the previous day. It brought me TWO big blisters showing the fleshhhhhhhhhh, like the other time under my feet, which caused me to not walk properly. Pain like fish omg. Lesson learnt, next time buy better quality plasters and put more before you wear the shoes. LOLOLOL.

Now, I should go sleep already I suppose. This is the usual time I wake up when I have to go to school from msia, somehow I miss schooling . LOL. But not that much, hahahah ! Miss my friends I guess :}

Okay, byebye I'm going to sleep already. I can't believe the time is 5 AM plus plus already, okay nights or morning ppl :D HAHA!

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE.

all that matters

2009-12-18T14:56:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO :P

RECENTLY I'M KIND OF HAPPY, BECAUSE I HAVE MANY NEW FRIENDS (toy friends) LOL!

Firstly, I'm a little sad, because biaoge went back to KL already :( No one to teach me cantonese already, awww. Now, I'm a little nervous, because bster is getting his results in like 9 minutes time I guess. I hope that he'd score well, with FLYING COLOURS :D

Yesterday's yesterday, I went to www like AGAIN. This time with mummy and 2 nephews, it wasn't as fun as that time with bster and biaoge because both of us had to keep chasing the 2 kids. Tiring like what LOL. Mummy and me were like kept asking each other when can we go shopping, finally got to bathe and get out of there like in 2 - 3 hours.

Next, I played big sweet land yesterday, and hit the jackpot, and got the gold colour melody that I have been wanting since last month. Thanks to mummy who paid for me xD HAHA! I also love the toys that bster have won for me, and especially the one he bought @vivo. < LOOK AT THIS BLMW. I still love eeyore :]

Now, I am still jobless. LOL, mummy now keep ask me to work already, say got what job just accept. Don't know how also, already missed 2 job opportunities, wonder if there'd be more. Seriously, mummy is the best mummy :D

Later going out again I guess, wonder where are we going luh. Okay, time for tv. BYE-BYE xD

happy, yes i am

2009-12-14T00:18:00.001+08:00

Hello, haven't been blogging for a very long time. Kind of busy watching dramas and going out with peeps.

Last friday, had a party @my house to celebrate both my brothers' birthday. I feel so sad, 'cause it's not my birthday :( But the happy thing was that, Jerene and Jen came over to my house and slept over. Serene came over too :D It has been so long since there's a party @my house hahahah. Great! :D Had loads of fun, but was very tired that day, and slept very early.

Saturday, we went shopping @city square and then went back to singapore together with Jerene and Jen.

Met bennnnnnnnnxz on the mrt @sembawang and we went to orchard. Walk walk around, aim at everything we like. HAHA! Had the super nice + cheap ice cream, awesome, but so sad he didn't get to buy the one he liked LOL !

Sunday, went swimming @jurong with ben. Then went to jurong point, and had New york new york for lunch. Walk walk around and, time to go home :D

I stayed at home on monday, and went out with steady on tuesday. Went around finding jobs, actually found already, but the time slots doesn't fit. So, we went to do something, *STEADY YOU KNOW IT* TSKTSK! HAHA, had so much fun. Then, me went to meet ben while she go meet her aiai LOL. Went to plaza sing with ben, then ate @mos burger. I was feeling uber guilty cause I'm so unreasonable towards ben. Ahhhhhhhhhh, so sorry ;( Met s'rene aft that and went back home tgt. (:

Went shopping w mummy on wednesday, nothing much actually, but mummy is always the best (: And sad to say, I stayed home on thursdayyyyy then I finished watching 41 episodes of K.O.3anguo. Now, I have to wait for one episode every week, that's sad :( :( :(

Met up with ben and biaoge(ben's) on friday night, watch them pool. Then had late dinner, planned to slack together after that, in the end we quarrelled :( Almost cried on the mrt, thank god I held it till home. LOL. He's still the best :D And then on saturday which is yesterday, we went to ... ... WILD WILD WET ! It was awesome :D Had so much fun there, HEHE! K, then we went for dinner at subway. OMG, I actually ate a footlong sized bread or burger or whatever. Stupid me, order wrongly. In the end I was bloated like .. I don't know what. LOL.

Today, went out with brother big for the whole day. Ate the japanese steamboat, delicious! :D

Okayyyy, I've updated, and I'm HAPPY! :D Going vivo tmr, yayness.

OK BYEBYEBYE!
Ily, nothing can change that fact not even if we quarrel infinity times.

EH WAIT, I FEEL LIKE TALKING ABOUT K.O.3ANGUO.
I think that zhouyu is so sweeeeeeet to xiaoqiao awww, I so hope they end up together! I hope diaochan comes back to the show and be with guanyu again, and I hope that all the bad people goes to hell LOL! OMG, this show is so NICE. :x

Let's reply tags !
Reagan : Stop calling me duck when you're a duck! xD MIA-er loh you ! SO LONG NEVER SEE YOUR DUCK FACEEEEEEE. HAHA!
Serene : Heheheh, we went out that day. Yayyyy ~ HAHA, still wanna go suddenlywhatwhat anot LOL ! xD Anyway, go out again soooon (: And cheer up !
Zuiai : REALLY? :x Hmm, how much is the tickets? And when is the event? Tell me soon okay okay? Thanks zuiai !
Joanne : GEORGE LOOKS SO DAMN HOT! HAHA! SO LOVE HIM LOR LOL LOL LOL . LIU BEI ALSO VERY CUTE EHHHHHH ~

ok really bye :D

love is you

2009-12-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO
Life's pretty boring recently.

Yesterday, went to Mdm Timah's condo for bbq and class gathering. I thought it wouldn't be fun, but it turned out great (: Played twister, and it was LOL. 5 persons squeezing on a mat, crossing over one another just to touch the dot HAHA! Played tennis for the first time, it was fun fun fun, but kept hitting the air LOL! The food was niceeeee, hahahahahah. Sad thing was, Mdm Chan didn't come ): Awwww.

K, I think I'm gonna go try my luck again tmrw, try on what? Don't tell you LOL.

Recently, everyday quarreled with someone. Seriously, I hope this person can reflect on himself, of course I will reflect too. I hate quarrels. VERY MUCH. I hope the blmw on 29th nov can come back, pls.

I'm super addicted to zhong ji san guo, it's so niceeeeeeeeee. Guan yu is so hot hot hot ~ I think, he's hotter than leeminho !!! Ok, enough of this. I go back and watch already ! HAHA BYEBYE.

Pictures soon :}

just you

2009-11-30T01:32:00.001+08:00

I just don't wanna be alone.

TODAY(yesterday, 29thNov) IS A HAPPY DAY.

I met baby and wx @ woodlands centre there, pool with them awhile. After that suddenly very unhappy for some reasons, so I walked out. Face black until home, take the super cute pillow(made by ME) for baby, then he finally gave in to me and we're happy again!

We cabbed to sun plaza planning to catch a movie, in the end, the cinema was closed down, wasted the money D: Mrt-ed to cwp instead, so we couldn't find a nice slot so we can go home early. In the end, we chose new moon as we wanted watch it alot LOL. Okay, the movie was nice, especially the way edward treat bella awww. Overall the movie's nice, but I thought it was only out on 3rd dec ;x Lucky us. Hahah.

After the movie, waited for my mum to fetch me, and both of us went home :]

Hahahaha! B must sleeping soundly with the pillow currently. Time for me to go watch K.O.3anguo already. HAHA, byebyebye!

forever and ever

2009-11-28T12:28:00.000+08:00

Happy belated b'day to brotherBIG hahaha! :)

Yesterday went out again together with jo and steady, seriously I'm so broke. Supposed to meet Jernu and Jen aft that, couldn't make it in the end, again :/ Sorry girls, shall you all real soon kay!

Guess what, today's the 28th. 28th 28th 28th :D
& You know what?

You're, so, loved ! :D HAHAHA ~

Okayyyy, let's end the post HERE.
BYEEEEE!

only mine

2009-11-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hi bitch.

Today I'm in a very very not very good mood. Roar (copy wx) LOL, actually not really very bad mood also. Seriously, my mother rock alot (L) Heheheh.

Yesterday went to celebrate serene's birthday together with jo, singping, ben(aw), matthern & lester. Had nyny for dinner, nice (: Then went for pool, and bjm and wx joined us after working. Somebody was being a honeybee again HAHA! Cool, after that went back to msia w serene cause mummy didn't allow me to stay in sg.

Wished you were here, wished nothing happened.
I never asked, for more than your love.

I wished, I was never like this.

for you

2009-11-23T13:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BAOBEI DIDI TWX :D

Just wanna tell you, you're the best, the most understanding and shuai-est bb didi alr! Really glad to know you, to have you as a friend. I hope this friendship will last and not end here okay! I still wanna see you drive your lamborghini (dk how to spell), okay? xD HAHAHA, (L) !

Happy belated birthday to steady too! (: Friends for so long already, almost 10 years! Glad that you've enjoyed your birthday yesterday. I hope you'd be happy always, and I hope our team will stay like this always :} LOVES!

Went to celebrate serene's birthday yesterday. Planned to surprise her, although abit fail because I didn't hide properly LOL. She's still kind of surprised though. After eating the cake and jelly with her parents, we went over to ice skate. SO FUN, CAUSE IM THE FIRST ONE TO FALL DOWN, and my butt hurts ;( LOL, but I'm not the only one, because serene fell too xD Yay! Took very long to get the hang of it, can skate abit already, but still not v balanced. After that, went to eat at a japanese restaurant, and then I went to dhoby ghaut while the girls left. Shopped for some stuffs, after awhile benben came and pei me. Got all the stuffs I wanted, walked around awhile and went back to woodlands. Find bro and friends, and then supper at 888. Headed home at around 1 something, I was asleep the whole journey LOL! Gonna stay home today already, mac delivery later (mummy said) LOL! OK! BYEBYE! xD

love that stays

2009-11-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!
Did I mention I was supposed to find my job alone today? I'm happy, 'cause so just nice benster and twx the cockster was around the area :D So we met on the mrt, and went to orchard. I didn't really find a job, just kept laughing and playing with them. I still filled form for few jobs, hopefully it'll work.

We ate burger king for lunch, then wanted to walk to cineleisure. In the end, it rained so heavily, that I decided I shouldn't go to tampines, paya lebar, raffles place, or whatever place for my interviews, 'cause I called many companies through the newspaper today. So we stood at shaw house while waiting for the rain to stop, in the end it didn't stop, so we ran under the rain! Luckily I have my jacket to cover me, hahahah! Stopped at DFS, to find toilet for twx LOL. In the end, went around looking at those branded goods. Really is WAHHHHH , hahahah ! Then wx said, after seeing he don't feel like going toilet alr LMAO! Sat in front of the DFS there to talk and slack, after awhile went to cineleisure. Saw a very nice t-shirt, in fact a few, wanted to buy tgt with benster, yet no size or no colour, in the end didn't buy! D:

Train-ed home at around 7 or so? Went to cwp to buy something, and we wasted a lot of time there, they two are so funny though. HUHHHH ?! LOL. K, and then they pei me wait 950 and I went home :D Today was funnnnnnnnnnn ! 'Cause of the two person holding crutches, HAHAHA (nvm if you don't get it).

Tomorrow going out again I guess. Stupid twx must be otw to benster's house now, hope benster won't get raped xD HAHA, byebye!

Oh ya, I found this really funny pic on wx's hp, so let's share the joy xD OK! READY?
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IT'S EUGENEEEEEEEEEEEEE, OKAY BYE :D

no more chance

2009-11-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

OH MY GODXZXZXZ. I'M SO HEARTBROKEN, SERIOUSLY, VERY, MANY, MUCH, SUPER, UNTIL I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA -.-'

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

Actually my mood was so good today, 'cause mummy brought me out to shop at bugis, spent a lot of money, feel so bad. Got lots of stuffs I wanted to get, thanks to my dearest mummy.

I FEEL VERY SAD CAUSE I CAN'T FIND A JOB. ;( LALALALALALA.

I WONDER WHYYYYYY. IS IT BECAUSE I'M SHORT? xD LOL, don't know la. Super sian one, so many attempts yet don't have any results. Should I give up on finding my job and stay @ home or go out play everyday? x( People find job so easy, I find job so hard. :( Sighhhhhs ~

My mood is back to normal already now. Okay, so today, went out with mummy. She's so funny omg, always laugh at people one, no wonder is my mother :x LOL, walked around the whole bugis, from 12 to 6 plus. HAHAH. I think I like bugis junction more than iluma, iluma is soooo ulu can. K, overall, I'm a happy girl today. Something super ps happened at food court just now, luckily there wasn't anybody I know around except mummy :D

K, let's end the post today. I'm too sad cause no job. BYEEEE.
Think I'll go find more jobs tmr, anyone wanna find tgt can text me k. :(

i call it love

2009-11-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

HELLO!
I have the so feel like blogging mood, like keep posting recently. Hahah, today actually didn't wanna go out. In the end, quickly rushed out of home, when mummy was about to leave, lucky I woke up, if not I'll have to rot. I went to yishun to get my hair done w the honeybee :D But the person didn't do a good job for me, sighs. Like no difference like that, gonna go re-do x;

Okayyyy, met steady, then went over to parklane. Played pool for awhile then something happened, so very sad. Then wasted lots of time, so sorry ): After that okay already, then went over to bugis while steady go meet her mum. Played at the arcade, played the catch catch machine! SO HAPPY! In the end, never catch until anything, abit disappointed, but still appreciate the effort :D Accidentally kept two tokens until I reached home LOL. Shall leave it for next time.

After that met steady and her mum, go eat the laksa, wow, super nice (: Then walk walk around, bought some very cheap stuffs, hahahah! Tsk! Went to simlim bought some accessories for my "wanyi's love" (name of my ipod touch) LOL, super cheap mannn . After that went homeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

That post was supposed to be posted yesterday, I fell asleep in the end. LOL.

This morning steady came to my house when I just woke up, then mummy brought us for lunch and we went to do our nails. I think I've been spending too much money. Hope to work soon (: After that came home and then steady went home awhile after. I so love my mother she's the best best best :D

Tomorrow going out with jernu, nu and yitian I guess, guess it's gonna be fun. Then most probably gonna ton ? Hahah, hope it'll be fun fun fun (: I've been sleeping since afternoon till now.

Someone's super sweet can! Hahah, loveeeeeees!

&& I WANNA ADD ON SMTH.
I wonder why weixiang keep praising me lur omg. *shy*
HAHAHA, and eugene shim, you suck pretty much. xD

set me free

2009-11-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'M STILL SO ENERGETIC NOW.

We met at cwp @ 6.30 in the evening ytd, then went to von's house to get some stuffs, after that walked to woodlands centre from there. Met a frog halfway, and all was screaming like mad LOL. Serene joined us at KFC, then went pooling after that. Though I still sucks in that, but well IMPROVING already. I will jiayou for myself ! HAHA.

After playing it was like 11.30 already, so we bus-ed to cwp, and took the last train to toa payoh. All the bus services ended already, so we planned to walk to newton from there. It's like super far okay, our supposedly ton became a walkathon instead. I realized nowadays singaporean uncles are becoming more and more not kind. A cab actually stopped to ask where we were going, so we said newton. Then we purposely say, "aiya, sian lor, from here walk to newton so far! but we no money sia, hais." The uncle actually told us "HAPPY WALKING" and drove straight off. Finally we got lost and had no choice but to take a cab, the uncle was so kind :D oh ya, and actually we wanted to cross the road to chase the bus, there was this fence there, same like the last time during national day. This one more challenging, cause it has pointy edges. All of them happily climbed, and I was stuck on the fence LOL, and jody saved the day. Hahahaha, kept thinking back @ the scene and feel like laughing man .

Finally reached serene's place, bathed, and starting playing WII with them. Played the tennis game, it's like super fun though I kept losing. Yeah, played all the way until 6 plus in the morning. Planned to not sleep, but the DDR can't play, so went to sleep. Von , jody and me woke up at 9 plus, wanted to wake serene and joanne up, in the end no response LOL LOL! And then 3 of us went to orchard for breakfast in jersey and fbt LOL. Okay, then we went swimming and sauna after that, was like super shuang! ;D Had so much fun with both of them @ the pool there. LOL. Started to do some stupid stunts after we got bored of swimming. HAHA. Went back for training in school after that to give the t-shirt to coach and teachers, played awhile and I'm home. Here I am, still so energetic but aching all over. Too long never exercise already.

I wonder what time should I sleep later, cause my mother is laughing at my dark eye circles. So evil, LOL. I also wonder if I should go dye my hair. Ohhhhhh, so much things to do and buy, yet so little cash. Till now, none called to ask jernu and me for interview. Aww, that's like very sad. If this goes on, I'm afraid I have to turn to kelly services HAHAH! I feel like going walk walk tmr, but I don't know where because I'm broke, very broke. D: Someone was being a honey bee today, LOL. HEHEH :D

Think I should watch dramas to kill time instead since there are so many dramas that are nice now, but it's like so irritating to have to buffer all the videos part by part. :/ Kay, nevermind, shall go find something else to do instead. I WANT JOB JOB JOB !!! D: I feel like taking up some courses too, shall go check out what courses are there :D OH, and I feel like going WWW too. So random omg.

K, time to go byebyebyebye!

rain's over

2009-11-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

HMT IS OVER, AND TOMORROW IS THE LAST PAPER BEFORE PARTY STARTS (AGAIN!) LOL, HAPPY? NOT HAPPY? I FEEL NOTHING. OMG, I DAMN FEEL LIKE WORKING, CAUSE I WANT MONEY MONEY MONEY. BOUGHT SOMEONE'S PRESENT TODAY, AND I'M BROKE, BUT GLAD THAT HE LIKES THE PRESENT. CAUSE IT'S SUPER NICE, CHOSEN BY ME THOUGH IT'S LIKE SUPER BELATED D: SO SORRY!

I wonder why am I typing in caps, why am I so excited LOL. I guess it's because tomorrow's the last paper, and I'm very happy. Kind of afraid of the results though. Well, play first then say! Yeah, I wonder when are people gonna call me and ask me for interview and tell me YOU'RE HIRED. ;D

Sometimes, I feel like I'm so alone. Whatever it is, wanyi is a happy girl today, I think somebody knows why (: Hope that person cheers up soon and talks to me asap! Anyway, today's last tuition session with mrs kok, wow it's like 2 years pass so quickly. I guess I will miss those times where I tell her all my stupid secrets and our combined lessons with steady. 'Cause this teacher is so steady also la!

Yeah, I kind of feel very sian. I think I should go study already.

Before that, I shall reply tags :D
COMMANDO CHEONG :D
Walao, you most sincere already lor! Suddenly rmb alot of stuffs about you when you're in lower sec, it's like oh-so-funny! HAHAHA, stay in contact! You also must okay. Will never forget all of youuuuu, I'm super sincere toooo! & thanks for the tagggg ! Anw, nextime don't type so fast, you spelled your name wrongly xD

Ellie : Will rmb jiu gooood (: Talk to you sooon!
Reagan : Hello! Boxim la you! xD
Pan : Heyyyy girl, long time never see you also D: Anw, thanks for the tag!
Eugene & Weixiang : YOU TWO DON'T SUCK, ESP EUGENE SHIM YOU SUCK MOST. STOP THE ~~ AND THE RABBIT THING. KILL YOU I TELL YOU . BEWARE!

this is shit

2009-11-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

AH, LIFE SUCKXZ TO THE MAX MAX MAX !!!
RAWRRRRR. SUPER UNHAPPY, SUPER PISSED OFF W EVERYTHING.
KK WHATEVER =="

Today's the last tuition already, will super miss chenlaoshi damn much. The best best chinese teacher (: Hahah, after the 4 hours tuition, she brought us out for a meal, wooo ~ So the few of us went, had lots of fun while eating. Of course that two girls who disturbed me had the most fun I guess. LOL. Took some pictures after that, and *poof* went home. LMAO!

I think I've no mood to study for MCQ already, everyday thinking of play and work only. Die man, stupid attitude. Still must study, later shall do more questions (:

P/S: ELLIE TAN, must remember what I said to you today okay? 'Cause I really mean it, BFF ! :D

BYEBYEBYE SUCKERS.